
Originally Posted by
black_widow
Since I've started dancing, I've found that I get stage fright ONLY when I'm in front of people WITH my clothes on. If I start to take them off, I stop freaking out. Which is the opposite of how most people feel--being naked in front of people is wayy more freaky than just being in front of people. But because of the years I've been dancing, I have become accustomed to playing a naked, sexual role onstage, but if you stick me up there and ask me to do something OTHER than that, I get all weirded out and have panic attacks, LOL.
Other than that, since I started dancing, I've learned the value of my looks, and how to manipulate men to give me things that I want based upon how I look. Before I was a dancer, I didn't realize how much a good looking woman could get away with, and how much sway she had in society. Now, I realize that my beauty, while fleeting, can get me a whole vast array of things that I want and need, without doing anything other than being present at certain situations. I know how much I am figuratively worth, and use that as leverage to get what I want. Probably not too healthy, emotionally, but true in my case.
Also, since I've been a dancer, I always look at money in terms of "how many lapdances is that?" For instance, whenever I'm shopping, if something is $60, then that's "3 dances". So, the value of items to me equals the amount of lapdanes I'm going to need to do to replace the money spent on it. I always weigh the value of the item with the amount of effort I'm going to have to put into those dances. That way, I keep myself from spending too much money, because when I think about doing those dances, I tend to think of the nasty guy I had to dance for instead of the nice one, so I really think "Is it WORTH spending 3.5 mins with that gross dude again for that $20 purse?" The answer is usually no. But even when I don't do this, whenever I see a $20, I think LAPDANCE! HAHA.
I'm also not the sort of girl who is up on popular culture. I don't own a TV, I don't listen to the radio, I don't read the papers. I generally live in a pop culture black hole and before I started dancing, I really didn't know any of the words to any of the top 40 songs (besides the rap ones that I heard all the time near my house). NOW--thanks to dancing, I know the lyrics to EVERY Nickleback song, every Beyonce song, every Lady Gaga song, pretty much all pop songs in general. I find myself singing along to stupid the stupid radio stations they play in the mall or in the elevators.
Lastly, since I started dancing, I've learned how to actually apply make up correctly, even though I'm told I wear too much of it. Probably due to having strippers teach me how to wear it, lol. My mother never took the time to teach me how to do anything productive, let alone to put on make up, or to do my hair, so dancing has taught me how to make myself look at least half way groomed lol. I now know how to apply all sorts of stuff I was completely confused by--mascara, eyeliner, ect, and how to actually STYLE my hair instead of just brushing it, LOL.
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