I ran into a couple old friends at a bar the other night, and they already knew where I worked (smallish city word travels fast) and they both said they wanted to come see me dance. I'm not ok with that! Of course I didn't say that to them then, I just acted like it didn't bother me at all, but the truth is that it horrifies me.
The first is a guy I've known FOREVER. We grew up together since we were kids. I actually slept with him awhile ago when my body was in much better shape (before kids) and that's probably why I'm so nervous about him seeing me now... (plus my bf would probably kill the guy if he knew but that's a whole different vein of drama)
The second is a lesbian chick that's a really close friend of my boyfriend. I'm not exactly sure why I'm so nervous about her seeing me, but I am!
To date I haven't ran into anyone in my friend circle or from my past. Now I have two that wanna come see me and it's the most nervous I've been since last summer when I first did auditions.
I don't even know if I'm asking a question I'm just about to shit myself thinking of them coming to watch me dance. I just have this feeling that they think I'm gunna be a bad ass on the pole but in reality I'm not that great of a dancer. Hopefully they were just talking outa their ass and wont really come.. but I'm not sure!
No wonder most dancers dance out of their hometowns. I'm terrified of people from my past seeing me!




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