I have smoked weed for ten years now, ages (15-25).
I also drank alcohol heavily for the past ten years but I quit that one year ago. (yay!) I thought that things would change but I still found myself lost and unable to follow through on anything. I just don't ever feel the WEIGHT of responsibilities and consequences. I have been in college for about 6 years on and off always changing my major. I get A's and can crank out a paper like no one else, but I always decide for some reason or another that the class is too early or the teacher too nasal-voiced and bail out on the whole idea. Besides college, I have also been to hair school and the military (but I quit both of those too).
Right now, I really want to finish my personal trainer certification and have this OTHER business to funnel my stripping money into. You know, buying equipment and advertising and NOT having to get a business loan or use my credit cards too much.
Sometimes when I smoke weed I can't even work though! Why would I? WHo cares!!! I'm so high!! I feel like it just wraps me up in this fuzzy green blanket of well being. I don't care that "wall st. is the death of main st." and I just ACCEPT that people are going to honk/hit on me. I'm finally nice to people and peaceful when I smoke pot but I don't have the ACTION and MOTIVATION required to take myself to the level I need to be at.
Anyway- My hope is that YES I will be able to smoke pot someday.
Maybe you girls can help me with some stories of stoners you know that may have tried to quit or succeeded and now smoke more conservatively. Or you can tell me stories about the pot-heads you know that lost all desire to particapate in life at all....



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