Hey all -
This past year I've really been struggling emotionally. All the stress with my personal life and already cliched world events have taken a heavy toll on my skin. I have always been acne prone but it is now at the point where I am covered in acne. The upside is I've done a lot of soul searching and definitely like who I am as a person much more deeply. and I've had to learn to push through with confidence even when my external appearance is, well, covered in blood. I'm now looking for sugar daddies and have a couple profiles up on various sites. In the pictures I am wearing foundation and blemishes are airbrushed. I look fine with make-up on, the complexion is smooth but the texture of my skin still is not. However, a lot of guys really appreciate women to look a certain way without make-up, so I don't know if I would be poorly received in person if I don't mention anything about having bad skin before hand and it comes as a big surprise. I am not trying to sound stuck up but I am a really beautiful girl, I just have acne I have not been able to control. The treatment is highly expensive and I'm still seeking a doctor who will prescribe Accutane (the end all be all of acne treatment). Once I am on the medication, I will look worse before I look better.
Also, about a year ago I did attempt to take my own life. I now have permanent scars on my wrists. I often keep them covered with bandanas, and while it doesn't look fishy, at some point I do at least prefer to take them off at night, although I guess I could just say it helps me keep my face clean, which would fly too.
Should I mention these two imperfections? I'm a really pretty girl, and I don't know if I've just personally had a rough experience with a lot of men overly preferring naturally beautiful women (who refuse to wear make-up, straighten hair, etc.) and those who do need a little extra concealment.
I can't imagine someone telling me, "wow, you're really ugly" as soon as I wash all the make-up off but I mean, if someone wants to pay big bucks for a beautiful woman, I guess I should keep those standards in mind...I do have some great poetry I wrote about my struggles with my appearance, maybe that would be a good way to break the ice.



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