Firstly, please, no haters, I know this can be a sensitive topic for some ...
Hey ladies, I know its been awhile since my last few posts but I really needed some support here and hoping some of you may be able to shed some light on what currently feels like a really dark situation.
I had an abortion a week ago (8.2 weeks along). I found out I was unexpectedly pregnant 6 weeks in and didn't have much hesitation about my decision as my boyfriend and I had talked about 'what ifs' in conversations before. Still wasn't easy but after going through all my options I know it was the right thing for us to do and I'm at peace with that.
I've been so emotional though, can't stop crying and I'm feeling like a real mess. Just not able to cope. I recently changed jobs/stopped danacing and am working twice as much and getting paid half as much which I know is putting a real mental and physical strain on me. I'm still waking up with the shakes (something I had prior to the abortion) ...
I guess I'm wondering how much of the emotional/physical stress is from the hormones alone and how much work is contributing. I was only able to have 2 days off around the procedure and then it was back into my 10-14 hour days working at the gym as an instructor/trainer. I guess I thought I'd be a bit more stable after a week but I feel like I'm just going down hill!
Physically I'm just really tired, a little bit of back pain and stomach cramps and only light spotting with no post op bleed (should I be worried about that !?) Just really confused as to what is 'normal' here and what feelings are being brought about by the hormones and when it will settle down ... I'm hoping in another week I'll feel a bit more settled? I just can't go on feeling like I'm going to break down at every little thing :-( xxx



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I can only imagine what you're going thru and I wish I could give you a hug.



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