
Originally Posted by
peachplumpear
Okay, so over one year ago I stopped drinking alcohol cold turkey. I had no help, I just told my boyfriend that it was something I had to do for him to trust me. I drank for about 8 years before I met him, you know, the typical wild child at every party who's so wacky and loving it doesn't seem like such a problem....until you get into your car. Anyway- for the last year sober, I've been pretty miserable, like, very critical of anyone who drinks and has a tiny bit of fun, amping up my pot-smoking to a daily routine, and cutting out all activities that might involve a bar or drinks. I don't like being around people, even my own family, if there's alcohol anywhere nearby. I'm very bitter about my decision to abstain, it feels uneccessary.
So, despite the problems I had in the past, I've decided to drink moderately again. I almost have to force myself too though, it's weird. I don't want to get drunk at all though. I'm not into the "escapism" of it anymore. I just want a little bit now and then. I'm in school and studying things I'm interested in, I feel good about my life and I make enough money at work to save for future business ideas I have.
Just curious if anyone has already struggled with this or is currently thinking about moderation/abstinence. Or what experiences have you witnessed secondhand?
I understand the risk involved and I'm prepared to muscle up my willpower when the urge for MORE hits me, but I think it's worth the risk to avoid living in a prison of my own creation!
btw I used rationalrecovery.org to stop drinking, they told me the power was in my mind and I never had even the slightest slip-up or need for reinforcement of the information after that.
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