My mum's younger brother. Mum is one of 9 children. Very close family. Her brother had a history of drug abuse (including heroin use many years ago) and has battled depression for many years.
The family tried to get him help. He was actually seeing a therapist and on anti-depressants. He tried to get himself admitted to hospital but was told he was not psychotic so he didn't need to be.
So he hung himself. It was obviously a massive shock to the family. My mum was so distraught. My mum's younger sister is now very, very depressed after his death.
I have never known a person who killed themselves before. You go through a range of emotions - sadness, anger, guilt. It's nothing like a death from an accident or illness.
Sometimes I picture him hanging. I didn't see it but I imagine what it would have looked like. My mum has also suffered nightmares since it happened - situations where he is dying in different scenarios and she tries to save him. I guess it's her subconscious wishing she could have saved him in real life.
I'm sure other people on here have had experience with the suicide of a loved one. If you feel comfortable sharing it would be helpful.




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