I can't believe I'm posting this....but I don't know where else to turn. YES i'm in counseling. YES, I pray/cry/ask friends about this DAILY.... and sadly YES i know what I think I'm going to do...but am not sure if I am right.
Wife and I have been married for 6 years, together for almost 20. Baby is due in a few days (yes, we're ready to pop). I've been in/around this business as a photographer, pinups4.com organizer, etc. for as long as we've been together. Late nights, all-girl friends, etc...this is the lifestyle we have (me a couple nights per week max) and she used to be on board with it...
November, it all changed. I was heavy into Pinups4, very close ( not romantic or sexual) with my partner, and wife snapped. Kicked me out. I come to find out she was only "trying to be OK" with my hobbies, thought all my friends were skanks (only some are LOL), never wanted to meet them, and didn't like that I was hanging with them and that it was late night.
I want to do a series of travelling reality shows that surround the Pinups4 concepts and other nightclub environments. She has known this for years...but now it's not OK. I understand baby changes HOW we do things, but IF?
History of HUGE anger issues on her end...and (frankly) I had been afraid to discuss alot of things with her for ...not a great honesty rating, I know. Some HUGELY painful things were said (by her to me, I'm sure there are reverse things)...that has gotten better.
January I moved back, we tried. She says she's hugely in love, doting, etc...I honestly can't be sure. I don't know when I'll wake up to find that what I was told is "true" is just "trying".
I will be VERY active in my daughter's life daily no matter what. Even if wife goes with her threat to move out of state to be closer to her family for "support" That part I know. Money is not something I'm going to skimp on for my baby.
I know I've changed...an argument we had last week where she said she was "done", told me the truck I drive was hers and I could lose it, and threatened to call the cops because I was following our counsellor's advice and trying to keep her from driving.
I know I'd be gone if it werent for the baby.
Question is, should I stay (SEEMINGLY for her, unless my feelings change) or should I plan to move out right after the baby's born?
Ramifications for baby??



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I wish I had some better advice then 'just wait it out' because I know its hard. I see how hard its been on my fiance and it breaks me up. Which is why I went for the anti depressants(well that and I knew I was a risk of PPD). 
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