This might belong in BB....?
Basically I've always had problems with mood swings, even as a teenager. My mom even started taking me to a therapist when I was 14 for it. I was put on Zoloft, Concerta, and Clonapin. I don't really remember why they put me on these specific meds... and I don't remember if I was actually diagnosed as bi polar.
So I turned 18 (I'm 24 now) and lost my medicaid so I stopped going to the dr and taking the meds. I don't know if it was the lack of meds, but I started drinking alot as a way to calm my anxiety down and turned into somewhat of an alcoholic. I drank and drank until I got pregnant (my son is a year old now). So the years before my son are kind of a drunken haze unfortunately (except for the relationship with my sons father...a long abusive relationship, I made a thread about it when I was here as 'LuckiCharm').
So I went through the pregnancy and now I have my son, and I don't drink as much now. I have been with the man of my dreams (we have been friends for a few years) since my son was about 3 months old.
So here's the point of the thread now that you have a little history... My mood swings are so drastic that my boyfriend actually sat me down last night and asked me if I've ever been diagnosed as bipolar. It could literally be something so small that sets me off. And when it happens, I know in my head that I'm way over reacting but at the same time, I can't control the anger, so in my head I'll be like, arguing with myself... if that makes sense. It's like an ongoing battle in my head and it's totally frustrating and I feel so bad for my boyfriend because he does nothing wrong, but I know I'm so hard to put up with sometimes.
So I made an appointment at a regular family doctor for Tuesday because I was just gonna get some anti-anxiety meds, but do you think there might be more to it? Should I change to a phsycologist and see if I might be bi-polar? I really need advice or something because this could cost me my relationship!!!![]()



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