I was going to start doing amateur nights this week but my car is shitting the bed.... 1996 stationwagon with about $1000 in repairs needed.... i'm borrowing it from my parents and they don't know what to do about it. They are reluctant to do the repairs (it's such a money pit) and they would rather jump off a cliff than to buy me a used car (it would be cheaper in the long run, I asked them and they yelled at me for like 30 minutes, even though I told them I'd pay them back once I got a job). I'd need a car to strip because all of the strip clubs around here are 45-60 minutes way, which is good anyways so my parents don't find out I'm doing it.
No money.... I have about $300 to my name.... I already have like 5 pairs of stripper shoes that my boyfriend bought me but not any stripper outfit sets or anything. I need to buy some of those. But don't I want to wait to buy those until I get hired and know what is expected to wear?? Then what about what to wear at amateur night?? And I need to get hired or win an amateur night to make some money... ughhh vicious circle
And I also have no place to live... I don't live with my parents because they live in the boondox, the closest grocery store up there was an hour away and my graduating class was 10 kids. I actually dropped out and homeschooled myself because I couldn't take it any more and moved out and lived with my grandparents, who I live with now.... I go to college and I will be a junior next year. I have lived with my grandparents for my junior & senior year of high school, and lived with them during summer break of college each year. Now this summer break, I feel like I have been the most mature, responsible adult that I have ever been in my life (college has done that for me, unfortunately not some of my friends). My room is clean, I am never in their way, I clean the house without asking them, run errands for them, etc. But they are treating me like crap and I can't figure out why! I never complain or say anything negative--not even like "Gee, this rain sucks today!". They never have anything nice to say to me. I won't talk back because I don't want to make things worse. I just feel like I'm not welcome there anymore and I don't know why.
Nevermind the fact that my Uncle is a convicted rapist and he lives up the road from my grandparents and visits every day. That's enough to make me uncomfortable.
I just can't live there anymore... it's time to move out. I don't want to wait another week and see "we'll let's see if it gets better or worse". I'm not gonna wait until something worse happens to be my pivitol moment to move out, I'd rather be out of there before that happens. I don't want to be there when it happens. My grandparents are very volatile people and I don't need to be in that environment. I have better things to do then play paddy whack and find something to make a big deal about!!
All that said.... I have no money, no car, and no place to move out. My boyfriend is still living with his mother but he is moving out and getting his own place by the end of June and says that I can live with him once he moves out.
But as for now, I have no money, no car, no place to live, and almost no hope...
Any advice??
Thank you ladies...



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