I should be excited but I feel numb...
I hop on a plane to Spain in less than 48 hours for a backpacking trip I've been saving and planning for all year.
I've been totally self-destructive the past two weeks. Old issues that I thought I was over (like from high school...I'm 23) like binging and purging, cutting, self-sabotage and crippling depression have resurfaced. Prior to the last month I had been really healthy with food for several years, had a solid yoga practice, and was feeling good most of the time. I don't know what happened. I don't feel like myself anymore. I don't know why I am doing this and what I can do to snap out of it. Maybe I'm afraid of being independent, maybe I don't trust myself? But it seems connected with this trip I'm taking.
I guess I was just wondering if any of you had similar experiences and if and how things got better.Any advice would be appreciated, I'm at a really low point and noone around me really understands how bad it has gotten.



Any advice would be appreciated, I'm at a really low point and noone around me really understands how bad it has gotten.
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