Today, I hit a customer for the very first time. He deserved it, I hit him hard enough for him to whine like a little bitch, and it felt really good.
An hour later, I bitched at a girl in the dressing room for spanking me in front of a customer. I don't like people touching me and she's not an exception.
Last week I screamed at a man to get away from my stage because I didn't want to look at him (I has unpleasant encounters with him on previous visits.)
These are probably things that a lot of you do or deal with on a frequent basis, but it's not for me. I usually kind of float through work, am friendly with everyone-- maybe a little over-friendly-- don't cause drama, just make my money and leave. But now I feel so aggravated all the time. I don't want to start shit but I'm so sick of bottling shit up and I feel ready to explode. I feel like I have exploded a little bit a few times this week.
Do you think it's time I've hung up my heels? I'm getting started camming but it's not steady income yet. Or do you think it might just be a phase? (I'm not PMS'ing!!) Has anyone else gone through this? Did it pass or did you have to take action like find a new job?
Also, does anyone know any relaxation techniques I can do at work? I don't like to drink because it fucks up my polework. . . .


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