


another baby





Fuck my civilian life.
I want the high. I want that state of all senses 110% I want that feeling were one second feels like one minute. I want that endorphin rush again. I want back in. Not just in, I want back in to the Fight.
except I promised.
^^^
My brother's dad is 65 and is in the Middle East as a 'contractor'. He tried retirement for 8 months and couldn't do it either.





It's the worst feeling in the world not being with the one you love yet not ready to move on. I feel the same way. There's someone I love and want to be with and some days I am convinced we will be together then other days I feel we won't. My family thinks I can do better (they think he's ugly, doesn't have what they consider a good job and he's being mean). I don't though because I am 39 and know my prospects are much less than they were. I will not date dads or fat guys yet these guys are in abundance while the type I like are hard to find (nerdy). It feels like my options are either wait for him and hope he comes around or settle with someone who has what I consider inferior issues.
To say goodbye to a dear friend who was taken unexpectedly Oct 6th 2009.
-E
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To have taken a different route the night I got attacked while out jogging.



I want the fun filled week I've been looking forward to for a month to not be ruined. No cowboys game, no photo shoot, no motorcycle ride, no hottie![]()
Licky like a tangerine
.... Yea I said it!!!



To have never wasted 5 years of my life being an alcoholic. So many people wouldn't have gotten hurt, those two DUI's never would have happened, and all the rest. The list is long.




To talk to my grandma one last time and tell her how sorry I am for being such a fuck up... and to let her know I appreciated her and loved her....
To see my long lost love, and tell him how sorry I am for letting what we had die and tell him that I stilll think of him everyday...
To walk out of my club and never ever ever have to sacrifice my morals to feed my kids and know that I'll never have to come back.
to just be free of the pain I've held onto for so long...![]()





To split myself in two so I can have it all. Separate the gemini twins. Miss responsibility and miss debautury can have their way instead of constantly fighting.





someone who actually loves me.
Sorry I missed church. I was too busy practicing witchcraft and becoming a lesbian.
"If you're good at something, never do it for free." The Dark Knight
"you conjunctively engender an intoxicating combination of wicked, wholesome & insanely intelligent" - a friend describing me
Blessed Be






My family to be together for Christmas....


A family... a mom and dad.
To be ignorant and innocent again.
To be able to live a 'normal' life and consider that happiness.










Sorry I missed church. I was too busy practicing witchcraft and becoming a lesbian.
"If you're good at something, never do it for free." The Dark Knight
"you conjunctively engender an intoxicating combination of wicked, wholesome & insanely intelligent" - a friend describing me
Blessed Be
It's closely tied in with innocence/ignorance. When you're unaware of alternative options, then you're happy living how everyone tells you you're supposed to live. Which I wouldn't prefer now that my eyes are more open, but sometimes it's tempting.
ETA: I just realized that your question was probably rhetorical. My bad!
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I Feel Like A Million Tonight,,
But One At A Time.





I want to be able to virtually kick someone's ass!!!!
Or at least choke some people through the internet!!!!
We should be allowed one internet ass kicking per year.
So not to take advantage of things...only use it when we REALLY, REALLY need to.
Like now.![]()





It wasn't rhetorical really. It's actually something I've been spending considerable amounts of time thinking about. I wouldn't change anything I've done. I don't regret the direction my life went... but after doing this job, which is anything but normal, part of me is seeking normal. Part of me is wondering what it is that would make me happy. If I could go to a "normal" life and be happy...
Wow... it's so funny to me to read something like this. I guess pov is everything.
I love video games for this reason exactly.
Sorry I missed church. I was too busy practicing witchcraft and becoming a lesbian.
"If you're good at something, never do it for free." The Dark Knight
"you conjunctively engender an intoxicating combination of wicked, wholesome & insanely intelligent" - a friend describing me
Blessed Be










^^^^Whoa, wtf???!





The italics didn't come through.
Sorry I missed church. I was too busy practicing witchcraft and becoming a lesbian.
"If you're good at something, never do it for free." The Dark Knight
"you conjunctively engender an intoxicating combination of wicked, wholesome & insanely intelligent" - a friend describing me
Blessed Be
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