Hey girls (and guys), so you've seen my pictures and I guess the general consensus is that I am physically ready to start dancing. I've known this for a while, as it didn't take me a long time to lose the baby weight and all that jazz. I've carefully hand selected my outfits, spent time with my son as a stay at home mom and cherished it, gotten all my make up, picked out my body wash, lotions, and body splashes, had my tattoos redone, bought my shoes, and been a member on SW for about a year. I think I'm just as prepared as I can possibly be, but I cannot get past this anxiety and fear of dancing.
I am so nervous that I send myself into a mini anxiety attack thinking about the actual dancing part. I can handle talking to customers, and being seen in my work outfits, but I am SO nervous to actually give a lap dance or a stage performance that I think I may vomit or fall down from the apprehension. I'm worried I'll fall in front of someone or get laughed at for not dancing sexily enough. I'm also worried because I have very thick hair and it's hard to style it the way I want it to go, so I feel like I have an afro--but the new products I bought definitely help!
Did anyone else have these initial thoughts? Am I right to assume I'll be laughed at if I fall or do something bad?
I'm worried I'll give a customer a "poor" lap dance even if I try really hard to do good and everyone will laugh at me. I have horrible stage fright and I'm scared out of my damn mind.
Is there anything I can do to ease into the whole first night?
I'm thinking if I just walk somewhat slowly and carefully, keep my head up and shoulders back, smile, make eye contact, speak in a sultry voice, and don't hard hustle my first night I should be OK. That STILL doesn't get me past the actual first time I take a customer to get a lap dance... and my damn audition which is a two song set on stage. I'm worried because I feel like everyone will be watching me and if I mess up I won't get hired and they'll laugh at me as I leave empty handed, and have to tell all my friends I was too lame to get hired at a strip club. My good friend works at the club, and I took her to her audition, but I'm worried she'll laugh at me too if I don't get hired.
My biggest fear is my actual audition...because once I get past the audition I'll have done a stage set and *hopefully* have gotten hired---so the only other thing to do is a lap dance. I'm not as nervous of giving a lap dance as I am of the actual audition.
I'm sorry if this sounds stupid or like a rant, but I'm like having a panic attack right now because I'm so deathly terrified of being laughed at or not hired... or falling or stumbling very noticeably. I can walk good in my shoes... I've worn them in public to practice... but I'm still scared. What if I break my ankle my first night?
Help :/... and tips on the audition/stage presence/first lap dance would be helpful. I searched "first lap dance" but nothing too helpful popped up on the first three pages.. the results didn't even seem related to my search.
Thanks!
-Laurisa



. My good friend works at the club, and I took her to her audition, but I'm worried she'll laugh at me too if I don't get hired.
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