hey
i usually work 4-5 nights per week and just took a few days off and rostered on for 3 to center myself for always being tired. the thing is, i usually get two or three private shows early on the night and find myself not approach people later, talk myself out of going up to people and too tired to do podiums and go home with 150-200bucks on a friday. usually i had a 300/night average and a really good night every two weeks or so but i find myself avoiding work and potential good customers.
yes its stupid and i dont know why i do it.

how do i bring myself around to making $$ again?