I probably should, but don't keep my period on a schedule so I'm always shocked around the same time every single month when I seriously flip the fuck out and do some insane psycho shit. Then once my period actually comes I calm way down and go back to normal.
You would think that the crazy mood swings and destructive attitude would be a clue as to what's coming in the next few days, but it never is.
This month I became upset with my boyfriend (reasonably so) but blew it so totally out of proportion that I began tearing things up in my house. I threw my Broadband router and wireless router clear against the wall and broke them both (while they were still connected to each other), slammed my chair into the living room floor and broke one of its legs, spent the entire day crying and screaming into a pillow like a fucking idiot and just made a general ass out of myself. I've been suuuper drunk and made a fool out of myself before but it doesn't even begin to touch this...
One of the last bouts of PMS caused me to delete the website, facebook, twitter, youtube, blog, and almost all personal accounts I'd worked an entire year creating for my online persona. Now I regret it all. Every last bit of it.
I drove all the way to school, got out and walked to class, but turned around and left immediately because too many people were saying "hi" to me and asking me how my summer went. I was just really physically hot and upset for no reason. I felt like the devil was inside of me or something. Idk...
When I was younger I always had mild cramps but not so much any mood swings, but as of late the cramps have become intense. Like... crying/screaming "why me" in the middle of the night, sometimes throwing up, crawling on the floor intense. I have to admit it's kind of scary during the cramps and immediately after an episode of temporary insanity, but I always pass it off as things return to 100% normal in a day or two.
I'd always seen stuff about women and PMS in movies/on tv and I always thought it was a stereotype/exaggeration since it never happened to me personally. Does any of this sound even remotely normal for any small percentage of people? Or do I really need to go to the doctor, like, NOW? It's really embarrassing and I don't want to find myself socially isolated because I'm a psycho raving bitch for 1-2 days per month. But if I'm not the ONLY one then I guess it's not as big of a deal. Idk... HELP!



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Now I've learned to recognize the first symptoms of it (by my crazy behavior) and then I just dont let myself make any important life decisions at that time lol. Like if I'm mad at my bf, I will make myself think about it for a few days before attacking him because I know I will feel WAY differently about the situation when I'm done PMS'ing.


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