Aaaah, yess...you all are describing me to a T! I'm pretty damn antisocial, so even the prospect of being around that many people is like Aaaah!
One thing I know I do that kills me is I put a TON of pressure on myself. I feel like I have to be the top seller, every single time. I put a lot of effort into this job--to seem social, to entertain, and to make people happy--and it just sucks the effing life out of me.
Ironically, I only started dreading work once I became a top earner. It feels like all eyes are on me, even though I shouldn't give a shit. People will comment about the money I make, so I know it isn't all in my head.
I only go in when I know I can 'give it my best,' even though it's not about that at all! Logically, I know that I will always make more money going in than I will sitting on my ass. But logic just doesn't seem to work in this situation.

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