Results 1 to 11 of 11

Thread: Venting....really sorry...emotional aspects of camming

  1. #1
    Senior Member Dreamofluxie's Avatar
    Joined
    Nov 2010
    Posts
    173
    Thanks
    111
    Thanked 226 Times in 68 Posts

    Default Venting....really sorry...emotional aspects of camming

    Hi there guys, I know I am new but I just wanted to post a little vent, it's not really directed at camming but it is emotionally related and I'm just worried.

    Today I had a bit of a horrible experience, I'm living with my mum at the moment till I earn enough to move out, but also I am looking after her as she is quite old, she is 60 and she is blind in one eye and has mobility issues. The other day the guy who lives downstairs came up and complained that there was a leak from our bathroom coming into his roof.

    We figured out it was from our washhand basin so agreed not to use it until the landlord fixed the leak. Anyway, that was fine until today when the guy came up again to ask my mum if the landlord had fixed it yet. She said no, she had left a message with the landlord but no one had called her back yet. Then he just KICKED OFF. He YELLED at my mum and accused her of leaking the washand basin ON PURPOSE (who te heck would do that??) Then he was just really rude and yelled even more demanding she sorted it out. I came out at this point because of the yelling, and he left shouting "JUST BLOODY SORT IT OUT, and SOON!"
    I feel really shaken, my mum was terrified by his behaviour, he is a big, tall, burly man and she is old and vulnerable. She was in tears and has gone to bed, given up all her plans for the day. I just feel angry and shaken and bullied by his behavior, especially as he is in such close proximity to us, he lives just downstairs.

    I went downstairs immediately to confront him about coming into our hosue and being aggressive and bullying my mum, but he didnt answer the door, so either he has gone out or he just doesnt want to talk to us.

    The thing is, I started camming two days ago on MFC. I had a really good few nights, met some lovely premiums who tipped me (nothing big but it was a start...for only a few hours work I have got 1000 tokens) and I am really enjoying it. Some premiums last night asked me when I would be on next, and I replied that I was going to be on tonight after I finish my regular job at about midnight. They seemed really excited and told me they would come back tonight. But after what happened today, I know it sounds stupid but I don't think I can handle being online tonight. I just feel really violated and worried about my mum...she is a previous victim of abuse, and I am so angry that someone who barely knows her can be so horrible.

    I think if I go online tonight it's going to be really hard, I don't feel at all happy or fun...and one of the things I think people liked about my room was that I am really friendly and chatty and carefree seeming, I really try and connect with everyone in my room and make them feel special. I just feel like I don't have the energy to do that tonight, I feel like just....hitting out at someone, and I don't think that will make my chatroom a very fun place to be...lol.

    But I am worried because I really wanted to try and be as regular as possible on MFC because I know it's hard to succeed on there if you don't work hard, and I wanted to be on every night. Plus I told all the people in my room I'd definitely be on tonight.

    I'm scared it will adversely affect my camscore/popularity/whatever if I don't go online. Maybe I'm just making too much of a big deal about this. I don't know.

    I've got a fairly thick skin and dont usually let things affect my work, but this is just so horrible, mainly because its an emotional attack on a vulnerable frail elderly woman who does NOTHING but good to others and has had so much cr*p to deal with in her life, by an obnoxious, burly, well built man.

    The leak in his house isnt even dripping anymore...it was just that one TIME and we havent even used the basin since, and we have called the landlord, what more can we do??? We dont have the money to call out an expensive plumber when its the landlords problem. We don't have much money at all which is part of the reason why I want to succeed in camming.

    Ugh. Sorry, vent over. I just feel completely shaken up and worried about my mum. I'm going to find it hard enough to go out tonight and do well at customer service at my regular job (i work in promotions) let alone coming back and putting up with stupid beggars in free chat on MFC.

    Do you guys cam when you have emotional stuff going on in your life? I know if it was a regular job I'd just have to suck it up and work anyway and pretend I wasn't feeling awful or else I would be fired so maybe I should work tonight anyway. I just want to sleep.

    Anyway sorry, I don't know what you guys can do to help and I know I'm new so its not you guy's business or whatever. I don't know who else to talk to as none of my friends/family know I'm camming yet. I don't even know why I'm so upset...I guess it's just because, as I said before, my mum is a previous victim of abuse and it just brought a lot of stuff back. His behavior was definitely unacceptable and unprovoked. I am just shocked.

    Thanks for reading this if you guys managed to get through this, haha.

    Hope everyone has a good evening camming/escorting/whatever work you may be doing.

  2. #2
    God/dess laurielegs's Avatar
    Joined
    May 2010
    Location
    USA, northeast
    Posts
    7,317
    Thanks
    30,600
    Thanked 17,691 Times in 5,185 Posts

    Default Re: Venting....really sorry...emotional aspects of camming

    Sometimes you just really need to take a day off.

    I find that it's tempting to turn that into two or three days so I do try my best to go ahead and go on for at least half an hour to keep in the swing of things. Often when I get on then I decide to work a full day or night.

  3. The Following 2 Users Say Thank You to laurielegs For This Useful Post:


  4. #3
    Senior Member
    Joined
    Oct 2010
    Location
    Upper Midwest USA
    Posts
    107
    Thanks
    140
    Thanked 31 Times in 25 Posts

    Default Re: Venting....really sorry...emotional aspects of camming

    Well first let me say I'm sorry to hear that guy is acting like such a jerk and second I can really identify with that emotional aspect. I work a regular 40 hr day job have also been on SM since July. My sister is terminally ill with Ovarian cancer and has been needing more and more care. It is just the two of us left in our family so I am the caregiver. She is the most important thing to me right now. Sometimes when I am actually able to sign on to cam its hard to shake that vibe and play the part. I really need that income too! I feel for you...Hugs. I am going to watch the responses you get because maybe they can help me too!

    Stay strong!

  5. #4
    Senior Member
    Joined
    Oct 2010
    Location
    TX
    Posts
    132
    Thanks
    106
    Thanked 75 Times in 46 Posts

    Default Re: Venting....really sorry...emotional aspects of camming

    I think you should get on. Chances are you will shake the dreads and put yourself into a good mood. The better to give that asshole a righteous cussing whenever he opens his door.

    I don't think it will negatively affect you this early in your acct, but I do think fawning men make one feel better. Plus it makes you feel powerful so you'll be ready to take on the burly neighbor!

  6. #5
    Banned
    Joined
    Dec 2009
    Location
    USA
    Posts
    829
    Thanks
    773
    Thanked 230 Times in 155 Posts

    Default Re: Venting....really sorry...emotional aspects of camming

    sorry you had a rough day dealing with a stupid jerk. Just say fuck him and get online and make your money. Unless you REALLY are going to have a panic attack or you really don't want to go on cam, you should try and it will probably cheer you up and you'll make money and feel better. *hug* I deal with emotional shit all the time in regards to work so PM me any time you need someone to talk to.

  7. #6
    Senior Member Dreamofluxie's Avatar
    Joined
    Nov 2010
    Posts
    173
    Thanks
    111
    Thanked 226 Times in 68 Posts

    Default Re: Venting....really sorry...emotional aspects of camming

    Thanks so much guys, I think I really needed to vent...I'm on my way to my regular job now, but i think when I get back I'll try and go on for at least an hour and see what happens. Besides, if I feel awful I can always log off. Also I don't want that dickhead to ruin my day anymore.

    ChrissyBBW...omg hun I'm so so sorry you have to deal with that. Must be so hard, major respect to you in looking out for yourself and your sister. Sending thoughts your way!

    Raven69skye : first of all, I'm sorry to hear you have a lot of emotional crap to deal with regarding camming, and thanks so much for offering your support, means a lot. secondly...I feel like I'm having a bit of a fangirl moment here as your blog and twitter etc was one of the first things I ever looked at when investigating cam work. You're beautiful!

  8. The Following User Says Thank You to Dreamofluxie For This Useful Post:


  9. #7
    Banned
    Joined
    Dec 2009
    Location
    USA
    Posts
    829
    Thanks
    773
    Thanked 230 Times in 155 Posts

    Default Re: Venting....really sorry...emotional aspects of camming

    aww thanks <3 <3 Let us know how tonight on cam goes

  10. #8
    Veteran Member
    Joined
    Aug 2010
    Location
    Where it's way too hot!
    Posts
    334
    Thanks
    298
    Thanked 231 Times in 114 Posts

    Default Re: Venting....really sorry...emotional aspects of camming

    You take a night off... but come back tomorrow night ready to make some effing cash, ang get you guys out of that place!!!! What an ass hole. I am so very sorry he spoke to your mother like that. It's pure BS, and if he does it again I would warn harassment charges on his ass. You may even want to report this to the police just to have it on record. Not sure how it works in your area, but thats exactly how I'd handle that punk. And when you see him.... stare him down like a big bad dog! Don't ever miss a chance to burn a hole in him with your gaze.

  11. #9
    God/dess Smurfette's Avatar
    Joined
    May 2010
    Posts
    2,134
    Thanks
    3,336
    Thanked 5,934 Times in 1,334 Posts

    Default Re: Venting....really sorry...emotional aspects of camming

    I understand exactly how you feel. It may not seem like a big deal, but my fiance and I get into big arguments from time to time and on those days, I simply can't work no matter how hard I try to force myself. I guess I'm just not a good actress... if I'm not happy in my personal life, I can't 'act' happy and bubbly and sexual on cam. It just doesn't work.

    Although I'm tempted to log on to MFC next time we have a fight and start crying and sobbing in front of everyone. I've seen girls do this and they get a SHITLOAD of tips because guys feel sorry for them! lol.

  12. #10
    Veteran Member
    Joined
    Sep 2010
    Posts
    324
    Thanks
    315
    Thanked 249 Times in 115 Posts

    Default Re: Venting....really sorry...emotional aspects of camming

    UGH I`m sorry to hear about that horrible bully. If he comes back, you should call the police on him.
    My attitude when I`m too upset to go on cam is: Its work. Business.
    If I was a doctor or lawyer I would not be able to take the time off. A career is a career.
    Get back out there and tell those handhumpers that you need a new sink!

  13. The Following User Says Thank You to Troublegum For This Useful Post:


  14. #11
    Featured Member BustyAmeera's Avatar
    Joined
    Sep 2010
    Posts
    1,492
    Thanks
    1,251
    Thanked 2,199 Times in 787 Posts

    Default Re: Venting....really sorry...emotional aspects of camming

    I agree with taking a night off. Normally I do force myself online even when in a bad mood, because I really need the money, but if I was having an especially bad day, I would just not go online. Try not to let this guy affect you. I know how he acted was mean, and if I was in the same situation, I know I would cuss that asshole out! Your not going to come in MY house and disrespect me, and get away with it. I would just try to ignore him after that, and if he EVER decides to come back and is standing outside your door being agressive, call the cops and let them handle his ass.

    I hope you feel better soon, and get back on cam and make some good money!

Similar Threads

  1. i get emotional about this
    By silk55 in forum The Lounge
    Replies: 0
    Last Post: 12-22-2009, 07:57 AM
  2. Emotional Fail
    By vmurphy252 in forum The Lounge
    Replies: 3
    Last Post: 10-26-2009, 01:07 AM
  3. Emotional Repercussions
    By Jennifer84 in forum Newbie Board
    Replies: 8
    Last Post: 11-06-2007, 09:22 AM
  4. emotional numbness
    By ahmeerah in forum The Lounge
    Replies: 32
    Last Post: 09-22-2007, 06:33 PM

Bookmarks

Posting Permissions

  • You may not post new threads
  • You may not post replies
  • You may not post attachments
  • You may not edit your posts
  •