Hi there guys, I know I am new but I just wanted to post a little vent, it's not really directed at camming but it is emotionally related and I'm just worried.
Today I had a bit of a horrible experience, I'm living with my mum at the moment till I earn enough to move out, but also I am looking after her as she is quite old, she is 60 and she is blind in one eye and has mobility issues. The other day the guy who lives downstairs came up and complained that there was a leak from our bathroom coming into his roof.
We figured out it was from our washhand basin so agreed not to use it until the landlord fixed the leak. Anyway, that was fine until today when the guy came up again to ask my mum if the landlord had fixed it yet. She said no, she had left a message with the landlord but no one had called her back yet. Then he just KICKED OFF. He YELLED at my mum and accused her of leaking the washand basin ON PURPOSE (who te heck would do that??) Then he was just really rude and yelled even more demanding she sorted it out. I came out at this point because of the yelling, and he left shouting "JUST BLOODY SORT IT OUT, and SOON!"
I feel really shaken, my mum was terrified by his behaviour, he is a big, tall, burly man and she is old and vulnerable. She was in tears and has gone to bed, given up all her plans for the day. I just feel angry and shaken and bullied by his behavior, especially as he is in such close proximity to us, he lives just downstairs.
I went downstairs immediately to confront him about coming into our hosue and being aggressive and bullying my mum, but he didnt answer the door, so either he has gone out or he just doesnt want to talk to us.
The thing is, I started camming two days ago on MFC. I had a really good few nights, met some lovely premiums who tipped me (nothing big but it was a start...for only a few hours work I have got 1000 tokens) and I am really enjoying it. Some premiums last night asked me when I would be on next, and I replied that I was going to be on tonight after I finish my regular job at about midnight. They seemed really excited and told me they would come back tonight. But after what happened today, I know it sounds stupid but I don't think I can handle being online tonight. I just feel really violated and worried about my mum...she is a previous victim of abuse, and I am so angry that someone who barely knows her can be so horrible.
I think if I go online tonight it's going to be really hard, I don't feel at all happy or fun...and one of the things I think people liked about my room was that I am really friendly and chatty and carefree seeming, I really try and connect with everyone in my room and make them feel special. I just feel like I don't have the energy to do that tonight, I feel like just....hitting out at someone, and I don't think that will make my chatroom a very fun place to be...lol.
But I am worried because I really wanted to try and be as regular as possible on MFC because I know it's hard to succeed on there if you don't work hard, and I wanted to be on every night. Plus I told all the people in my room I'd definitely be on tonight.
I'm scared it will adversely affect my camscore/popularity/whatever if I don't go online. Maybe I'm just making too much of a big deal about this. I don't know.
I've got a fairly thick skin and dont usually let things affect my work, but this is just so horrible, mainly because its an emotional attack on a vulnerable frail elderly woman who does NOTHING but good to others and has had so much cr*p to deal with in her life, by an obnoxious, burly, well built man.
The leak in his house isnt even dripping anymore...it was just that one TIME and we havent even used the basin since, and we have called the landlord, what more can we do??? We dont have the money to call out an expensive plumber when its the landlords problem. We don't have much money at all which is part of the reason why I want to succeed in camming.
Ugh. Sorry, vent over. I just feel completely shaken up and worried about my mum. I'm going to find it hard enough to go out tonight and do well at customer service at my regular job (i work in promotions) let alone coming back and putting up with stupid beggars in free chat on MFC.
Do you guys cam when you have emotional stuff going on in your life? I know if it was a regular job I'd just have to suck it up and work anyway and pretend I wasn't feeling awful or else I would be fired so maybe I should work tonight anyway. I just want to sleep.
Anyway sorry, I don't know what you guys can do to help and I know I'm new so its not you guy's business or whatever. I don't know who else to talk to as none of my friends/family know I'm camming yet. I don't even know why I'm so upset...I guess it's just because, as I said before, my mum is a previous victim of abuse and it just brought a lot of stuff back. His behavior was definitely unacceptable and unprovoked. I am just shocked.
Thanks for reading this if you guys managed to get through this, haha.
Hope everyone has a good evening camming/escorting/whatever work you may be doing.![]()




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