So, it's been very difficult for me to find a "normal" job in my area. I was a salesman at a car dealership for awhile, and I hated it more intensely than I've ever hated any other job. And when I look around trying to find a respectable part-time job, it's so hard to accept that I'd be working twice the hours than if I was dancing, and making a quarter of the money.
I've also decided to go back to school full-time (I'm part-time and non-matriculated currently). I want to teach History, and I need an MA for that. So, time to buckle down and get my degrees.
I also have GOT to move out of my parents' house. My fiancee and I both live here, albeit temporarily. We have plans to get our own place by March. And I decided long ago that I was NEVER going to live in a shitty apartment with shitty things ever again.
So, following this chain of reasoning, since I need a job that can pay my rent, tuition, and living expenses, I have made the decision to come out of "retirement" and start dancing again!
I am very, very excited, and extremely nervous. I've gained 10 or 15 pounds since I stopped dancing last spring, and I'm very critical of my appearance. So I've been going to the gym very regularly and watching what I eat. I know that I'll slim up real quick once I'm actually dancing again, but I'd still like to be able to look at myself in the mirror without wincing. This is the biggest I've ever been; I'm 5'5", and I weigh 130. And a good 15 pounds of that was gained over muscle, which looks odd and unattractive.
I'm not going back to my old club, even though the manager there has been begging me to come back. I have my pride, and I'm not working for an owner who fired me because I wouldn't fuck him. It's gone way downhill and extras are now par for the course. I'm actually going to be starting at lol1337a's club, probably some time in December.
So, I guess I'm just looking for encouragement and advice. Thanks, ladies!![]()



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