For those of you who don't know,I've been in an abusive marriage for the past several years (2 years of those consisted of him being in prison for domestic violence). I live in public housing and he WASN'T on my lease so they wanted him out or I would be evicted. (He would never make it past the screening process b/c of his criminal record)
Last week I had a meeting with the director at the office and I KNEW this was my chance to finally get him out of my house and get away from him. (He's not physically abusive,like he used to be,but is VERY verbally,
mentally and emotionally abusive) Part of me was having second thoughts b/c I'm 9 months pregnant and I kept thinking,"Well,what if I need his help with this baby?" Then,I thought about the fact that,for the past month,he's been leaving me at the house with 2 kids and NO phone,sometimes NO food and NO money or transportation-all so he could go to the strip club. And STILL had the nerve to come home at 4 a.m. and accuse me of having some guy over.
So, the director called the cops up to the office and they went to my place and told him he had to get his stuff and leave and they were putting a trespassing warrant on him. He left,and IMMEDIATELY txts me talking about,"I know it was u that did this. Why would u do this? I'm gonna kill myself. My blood will be on your head." He tried to make me feel guilty about what I did and he got his family involved and basically tried to turn EVERYONE against ME and make me look like the bad guy.
And now that he doesn't live with us anymore,all he wants to do is go hang out with us and go places with us and take the kids out to eat and the park,etc... I'm thinking: Where was all this when you lived here???? He keeps talking about moving me and the kids out of here into an apartment and I kept telling him, "I can't live with you. I want to keep things the way they are." But,apparently,he won't listen b/c he keeps bringing it up over and over.
For the first time in YEARS,I feel like I can breathe again. The stress has been relieved,I don't need pills anymore to cope with him. No more arguing and crying myself to sleep. No more fighting in front of the kids. No more being put down and called a "fat fuck" on a daily basis or being accused of cheating. I LOVE it without him. I will NOT move back in with him. And I WILL be filing for divorce ASAP.



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