I have this new friend and she's a great girl. She's really sweet but incredibly sheltered. She moved up here from an extremely rural area in Alabama and has never had any social connections or even friends. She's probably the shyest person I ever met. But that's okay, I'm shy too. But she is ridiculously shy.
Well, I started talking to this girl because she lives so close to me and she's a cam model on MFC. She usually works every night and makes less than $20 in a 5 hour period. She is okay with that. She says that's the most she's ever made in her life. But she's really shy and she's not sexual at all. She told me she lost her virginity 6 months ago and she's 22 years old.
She's bisexual but I'm pretty sure she's a lesbian since she is incredibly grossed out by penis'. I've helped her apply to all the other sites and she still only makes less than $20 a night. She's not bad looking. She has a great body and an okay face. But she doesn't apply herself. I don't think any adult job is fit for her and I'm really surprised this is whats she wants to do. But she makes no money.
I decided to help her out a little and offered to try F/F on SM, AW and MFC with her. I wanted to do this because I live in a small town (but not as small as hers) and everyone here knows my name because I used to do porn. Well I often get threats and a lot of people hate me here. I'm very depressed because well... it's Saturday night and I don't know a single person who doesn't hate me, except for this girl. I can't find anything to do on a Saturday night. My only social contact is her and I'm usually an extrovert, so it bothers me being home all the time. She doesn't drive either and she needs to take the bus over to my house in order to work. The only way we can work together is if she shows up at my house at 8am EST, M-F and the bus picks her up at 5pm to take her home.
I've been working with her for a week now and I thought it would be great because it gives her the chance to actually make money and gives me the chance to interact with a real person who doesn't judge me. But it's difficult to work with her because she's not a "Performer". She doesn't give it an effort and it gets awkward. She will talk on cam but it sounds like just a mumble and it's obvious she doesn't want to communicate with customers. She usually doesn't even read what people type and she just stares at me. Then when we go into private, she has no clue what to do and it just looks awkward on cam. She'll try and look sexy but it looks like her eyes are just rolling around in the back of her head and customers always ask if she's okay because she always looks like she wants to cry when on cam. She will also just randomly stop after just 30 seconds and sometimes walk away, forcing me to turn the cam off for a second to make sure she's okay. But she always tells me she's having a great time and is really turned on. But we always have to take like 10 minute breaks after each private, even the short ones because she's dizzy. But we're not doing anything rough at all, it's all just gentle play. Sometimes she'll just roll over and she'll sound like she's out of breath and she always looks like she's having such a bad time in private. But she says she's not. She won't role-play either, even just vanilla sex role-playing that involves any sort of acting. She just sits there and won't say anything. Even if I try and help her out to avoid seeming awkward, I'll ask her (in pvt) what she wants to do or what position she wants to do next and she won't say anything. She just stares at me.Then it becomes awkward.
We've been making okay money on streamate. We didn't make 1 cent on MFC and AW we did like $20 an hour ($10 each). But Streamate, I'm making less money than I used to doing F/F shows. I used to make between $30-$50 (alone) an hour on SM and now since we have to split what we make 50/50, my share is $20-$25 an hour. I don't think its worth it for me, but we keep taking breaks. If I stop working with her then she won't make any money at all. She thinks we're making a crazy awesome amount of money. But to me, I do so much better working alone.
Should I keep working with her? I've politely told her what she could do better and how we can work together to create a rhythm but it just doesn't work. Should I give this more time and see how it goes? Or just go back to working alone?
PS. Sorry so long and I really don't wanna sound like a bitch cause I'm not. I just want her to open up more. She can't even say the word "dick" or anything like that. Not even off camera. She seriously says "thingy". lol. Her general personality and style reminds me of me in 6th grade. I'm slowly trying to get her to experience life and have fun. =) But now I'm worried because I'm afraid she might have a "thingy" for me because off camera, she just wants to kiss me and cuddle. But I'm really not into her like that. I don't wanna hurt her.![]()



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