Me and my boyfriend of 3 years broke up around November. Throughout our relationship he was sometimes physically abusive, and for the last 2 years of it he kept me secret from the rest of his family because his brother (who he lives with) didn't like me. (yea he's 24 and is highly influenced by his dbag brother) We had a VERRRY temultuous relationship, lots of arguements, no trust whatsoever..just really bad.. but we always forgave each other in the end.. ANYWAY i started dating someone new.. He's extremely nice and would do anything for me, cares about me and buys me cute things.. but for some reason I can't stop thinking about me ex CONSTANTLY. Me and my ex still talk and for the past month he's been telling me how he loves me and misses me and I reallly feel the same way.. but over the past 2 weekends his phone has been off and i'll pass by his house and see another girls car there.. The first time i freaked out.. like went up to his house and started screaming at him that he said he loved me and how he's a liar.. He keeps telling me shes just a friend and he doesnt wanna be with her.. but shes sleeping over ? Im not dumb i know he's lying but i dont know why im so effin stuck on him. It hurts SOO bad everytime he does this.. Like i've never felt so depressed or down in my life.. Like i knoww im being a hypocrite cuz im seeing someone else and it shouldnt matter if he is because we arent together.. but im going insane !! Im starting to pick out every single thing i hate in my new boyfriend, getting moody and mean when im with him.. He is REALLY sarcastic and lately ive been sensitive so I just don't even want to see him anymore. Even when im overreacting i KNOW i am i just can't help it anymore. I want to be over my ex so i can restart my life.. i KNOW if we ever got back together i'd still be his "secret" and i would never see him, and it would be the same fighting day by day.. Just my head isn't processing or something. I hate him and how he continuously hurts me and KNOWS he is but thinks its ok !!! But i can't help but love himI've tried not talking to him.. but I have NOTHING to distract me.. i have no friends, no family.. I havent worked in 3 MONTHS !!! because i've been so depressed and everytime i think i want to work.. i wake up and just lay in bed staring at the ceiling. My new boyfriend i see maybe once a week (and im starting to dread seeing him :/ ) so thats not really distracting, Im broke and can't do my usual retail therepy.. I've basically been lying in bed all day everyday, barely sleeping or eating. AHH i need help and advice on what i can do to distract my mind or if someone has a similer experience.. what helped them get over their ex ?? And any suggestions on what i should do ?? thank youu



I've tried not talking to him.. but I have NOTHING to distract me.. i have no friends, no family.. I havent worked in 3 MONTHS !!! because i've been so depressed and everytime i think i want to work.. i wake up and just lay in bed staring at the ceiling. My new boyfriend i see maybe once a week (and im starting to dread seeing him :/ ) so thats not really distracting, Im broke and can't do my usual retail therepy.. I've basically been lying in bed all day everyday, barely sleeping or eating. AHH i need help and advice on what i can do to distract my mind or if someone has a similer experience.. what helped them get over their ex ?? And any suggestions on what i should do ?? thank youu
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No fun to go out in and i drive a corvette so ive been stuck inside, which is HORRIBLE when im overthinking stuff ! Its also hard because i have nobody i can talk to about it. Ill be driving around and realize i how alone i am. He was kinda all I had. I'll do my best though to follow your advice
Im bad with breaking up, but they're are always easier when you go cold turkey i guess..
.... Yea I said it!!!



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