Hello everyone, I know I havn't posted on Stripperweb in months, I just have to vent.
Today was literally the worst day of my life.
My boyfriend out of nowhere looked me in the eyes and told me he doesn't love me or care about me. He told me he doesn't care if I die or what happens to me. 2 hours earlier he was holding me telling me he loved me. I have no idea what happened or what caused it. No fight. No nothing. My heart has been completely ripped apart and gutted. I have never felt this type of pain before in my life. I have been cheated on, beaten, treated like dirt, and no pain compares to this.
I treated this man like gold. I gave him EVERYTHING literally. I quit my job so he could get 2 better jobs to pay the bills and so I could start school. I lost my friends. I lost everything. I will soon lose my apartment cause I have no means of paying the bills. I've dealt with breakups before and I get over them and move on. But this is different. I really truly loved him. I am not a spiritual person what so ever but I honestly believed he was my soulmate. We would sit around and just talk about the future. I feel like a zombie just typing this. I've cried for hours, so much that I have rashes under my eyes from so many tears. I am so numb I just feel dead inside. I never thought a person could have this much of an impact on me until now. I just need someone to talk to. Anyone to give me some kind of support. I don't know what else to say...I can't..



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That's awful, girl. I wish I knew what to say to make it stop hurting, but it sounds like he really blindsided you with that. Do you have any girl friends or close family you can stay with for a few days that can help you take your mind off things?



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