Please save judgements...I feel horrible about this, but I don't know what to do at this point.
I posted in another thread about my panic-attack rage issues. If it hits, I go nuts, tearing apart my apartment. I throw things, break things, etc.
It happened again tonight, and I almost killed my pet birds. I was just able to stop myself from throwing their cage.
I feel so horrible, I can't stop crying. I know this is unbelievably horrible that I would even have the potential to hurt my pets, but when I get in these rages, I dont really have self-control...it's like watching someone else.
I am trying to get help...I found a good therapist and am going to discuss medications, but my first appointment is a ways off since he has a waiting list.
I am terrified I am going to hurt my pets in the meantime, and I don't want to risk going into a rage again and doing something terrible.
I am the biggest lecturer about how pets are a lifetime responsibility, but they are in serious danger staying with me.
I want to find them a new home, and don't know where to look. Can anyone recommend a way to find a good home for them? They're very sweet, hand-tamed parakeets.



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