So I've come to a crossroads in my relationship with my boyfriend and I'm thinking abot breaking up with him. However, I do not want to move back in with my parents. I want to dance and support myself. This worries me a little though because I've never had to support myself before and I don't know if this is a good way to do it. I'm still in school and I used to dance and loved it. However, I quit dancing for my boyfriend and never stopped wanting to go back. That's what all of our fights were about. The fact that it doesn't bother me that it hurts him when I dance and that I would rather leave him than leave dancing is of concern to me because it makes me think that I don't truly love him. Don't get me wrong, I do love him but not like he does. He wants to marry me and I want to be single. The problem is, I don't know if I'll ever find a guy as good to me as he is. He really is the best boyfriend ever.
He moved to Baltimore from LA for me and left all his friends and now works from home. He is itching to move back and wants me to move with him. The thing is, I feel like I'm giving up alot to be with him and I'm not even sure if I want to marry him. I'm in my senior year of college and to transfer to UCLA, I would have to miss an entire year of school (because I missed application deadlines for this fall) and I would lose alot of credits. Another thing is, I would be away from my family... But mainly, I think the thing that bothers me the most is that I can't live my life the way I want to as long as I'm with him and he's taking all my young years which are my top earning potential years in the biz.
Should I move out and break up with him and go back to dancing? or is it not worth it? I know alot of women hate dancing to support themselves and I never wanted to be one of them but I think I have no choice at this point if I break up with him.



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