I for a VERY short time, tried my hand at camming, until my living situation changed. It has changed once again, so I'm in a position now where I can try it again, as soon as I clear an area up in my friends basement to cam from
In my very short camming career, I've had just a few privates. My very first one I used a toy, and I don't know...I didn't like it. I felt so degraded afterwards. I myself don't understand why I felt that way because he was very nice, my private was 71 min long, and we probably talked for 65 of those mins. I felt very comfortable with him, but I don't know...I just felt icky when it was over. I beat myself up over it too, and felt like a failure at this. It still bothers me to this day, as I just dont understand it. I'm an escort now, and I don't have these feelings...? But camming made me feel degraded? Go figure, lol
So since then, I found SW and I learned that it's okay to just do "you"
In the few privates I've had after that intial one, I have never used a toy. I don't mind being naked, I can walk around all day naked, and I don't care who sees. I'm not a shy person, nor am I a prude, I just think that masturbating is a very personal experience for me, and I don't feel comfortable sharing. It doesn't bother me to see it, or that other girls do it, it's just not what I like to do. Maybe one day I will cross that threshold, but not today or anytime soon, that's for sure.
As soon as I realized that there were other things I could be doing to make money online without losing my self-worth, I did just fine! It may take me a little longer to make that money, but once I get back on and work hard, I'm sure I'll be able to find custies who just like me for me
So I say, do what makes you feel comfortable doing, and stay within your boundaries. I'm sure you'll make out just fine

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