
Originally Posted by
KamiOnline
So I made the most money I've ever made tonight....I should be excited right, especially because the bulk of my money was made in my sweatpants, on a fetish call.....
I had a custie who had a random mesh of fetishes all involving domination - financial, forced intoxication, small dick humiliation, etc etc....I had to google a lot of this stuff because I was just learning on the fly....
As a result of all of that, I made some good money, including several gift cards....but I just felt.....
I dunno....It's sooo hard to explain and I've tried explaining to the few people that know I webcam and they're just like "oh but it's more money so just go with it!"
So I'm hoping someone on here can understand how I'm feeling. I don't feel bad for taking his money - he's an adult and obviously derives pleasure from it. But, I just feel like I'm entering some crazy, confusing, surreal world that I didn't even know existed two months ago....
I honestly feel like I'm being pulled down a rabbit hole and everything is upside down.
It's hard for me to have a normal conversation anymore...Anytime I see or hear something weird my first thought is: "Someone would pay money for that"
Maybe I just took the call way to far and should have ended it earlier before I got burnt out....I just really feel like I'm in a completely new universe and it's hard because no one around me understands....
Not really sure what this post is about ~ I just really really needed to get that out...
Thanks for reading my rambling....
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