Ladies, my apologies for the long post but right now I'm in a sad state and have to vent! I've been working at a club that frankly I just have come to realize I'm not comfortable in. The customer crowd is very attracted to skinny fake boob types who are ditzy/dumb... I know this because these are the girls who constantly excel and make hundreds more than girls with real boobs and real personalities. I know it can't be this way everywhere. I am an all natural girl who many consider to be thick or voluptuous and certain people say overweight, but, that's an opinion. I am a sensitive person with a very genuine personality and I cannot hide it, although I have tried to by pretending to be the dumb girl... I just feel as though there is SOMEPLACE where some guys will appreciate a girl who isn't rail thin and is actually a college student with more to provide than silicone and giggles. Not to degrade those things, because they are successful, but they are not in line with the things that I can provide/associate with.
I understand that men come to clubs to find fantasy and fun, and that often you shouldn't be the type of girl who guys want to fall in love with, because then they want to take you on a date instead of get dances! Almost every guy I dance with tries to invite me out, tells me I would make a perfect wife, etc and I think goodness gracious I just want your money man!! But it's nice to hear that I'm so great!! LOLAnyway, the point I'm making and maybe you girls can put your two cents in, is that I think there's gotta be a crowd that would appreciate me for me. Of course I'd have to put a little ritz on my act to make me more stripperish, but not to the point that I'm worn down from pretending and putting on a very taxing act all night. I have so much to offer and I realize this, but I think in some circumstances it works against me because I just don't know how to present myself in the right way. I'm frustrated because I really need this money and I don't have any other options at this point... 200 dollars a night is not going to cut it...
Sorry again for the long post, but if just one of you read the whole thing and gave me some input I'd appreciate it SO much. I've been crying all night because I'm tuckered out with it all and I just need some type of inspiration or boost.



Anyway, the point I'm making and maybe you girls can put your two cents in, is that I think there's gotta be a crowd that would appreciate me for me. Of course I'd have to put a little ritz on my act to make me more stripperish, but not to the point that I'm worn down from pretending and putting on a very taxing act all night. I have so much to offer and I realize this, but I think in some circumstances it works against me because I just don't know how to present myself in the right way. I'm frustrated because I really need this money and I don't have any other options at this point... 200 dollars a night is not going to cut it... 
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