I am finally admitting to myself that I'm anorexic. Yes, I look awful and gaunt, and I hate what I have done to my body. I've known this for a good six months or so and I'm tired of fighting with my conscience. I have come to terms with the fact that I need to gain weight. I am 5'5, 110 lbs, and a size 0. I used to be a size 6, and look my best at a 4.
Here's the problem. (well ANOTHER one lol). I can't work out due to a spine injury and have been dealing with this for over 2 years. The last 10 months or so is when my eating became extremely restrictive, and that's when I started to further deteroriae in my spine. I have major problems with my hips and pelvis, and know that this isn't helping. They have gotten slot worse and I know that's in part due to the extreme muscle wasting I've experienced, as all the muscles in those areas are so so weak.
So now I'm left with an even further injury, as well as awful sagging skin. There is really bad sagging and loose skin in my inner thighs, my ass is completely flat, and my legs look emaciated and flabby. I've been down to 105, and have put my measly 5 pounds back on, and even though I was eating nothing but healthy foods to put it back on (lean meat, fish, lots of veggies, fruit, nuts) it came back even sloppier and saggier and more flabby.
I need any advice and help you could offer. How can I gain weight without working out, but without gaining sloppy weight? Working out is not an option as I can barely walk sometimes due to the debilitating pain and Injuries. I'm going to start some very light yoga and stretching, that is all my body can handle right now.



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But what's good is the fact that you are admitting to yourself now that you have an eating disorder, because SO many girls never do this (I have one friend that recieced treatment for anorexia and another that suffers from it now but hasn't admitted it yet :/)






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