...so i "auditioned" at this club (which was my last resort bc the one i WANTED to go was full of dancers)
Pin Ups (THE $5 lap dance club)
i went to go change my clothes as told to and was suppose to get ready to speak to female manager/dj..so that i could get on stage and perform..she apparently looked in a camera, walkie-talkied a bouncer, to come and tell ME that i had to come back when i toned up!
"okay.. fine..i understand"
bouncer asks me "ur not mad at her are u"..im like "uhhh no?"
As im walking back to the restroom to change back into my street clothes to leave, i see big-big (bigger than me) girls dancing on men inside, with tons and tons of stretch marks, cellulite, one girl looked like she was pregnant (no offense), one dancer was smiling to a customer asking if he wanted a dance with gaps in her mouth, gold teeth, hair in a tangled hot mess...i think the only thing they had working for them compared to me was their smaller arms!!
WTF!?
i just ran out of there..sooo pissed, frustrated, annoyed..i pretty much starved myself for 24hrs to get my belly as flat as possible..
i dont know what else to say..
i know that i AM going to continue working out and going on a strict diet and try again in several weeks..didnt want to lose alot of weight bc i dont want to lose the valuable curves for these standardized hip-hop clubs...i like my curves now..esp when i cant target fat
but now i see what i have to do..
i give MAAAAD credit and sincere respect to the thick or voluptuous or chubby-or whatever u wanna call it- women who go out and make that money..i see its def hard, but as for me, i cant do it now!
*not really looking for any smart-ass remarks, or anything else to bring me down even more..i just felt like expressing my "audition" moment and venting on how it made me feel*



, one dancer was smiling to a customer asking if he wanted a dance with gaps in her mouth, gold teeth, hair in a tangled hot mess...i think the only thing they had working for them compared to me was their smaller arms!!

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Maybe there is something out there better for you. Aim high. My first club was at one of the high hustle upscale clubs in town. Thanks to this website's HH, I was well prepared and did well as a newb.

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i was just frustrated and letting out some steam...
You will find a club eventually girl!! Hiding the septum ring will def help.

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