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Last edited by Kisca; 06-13-2011 at 10:26 PM.





No, summer is my favorite time. However I do that during winter.




Kisca-
Ur prolly alot like me and prefer to be close to a SO and thats prolly pretty much who u spend the majority of ur time with. In between relationships I have gone a year before I found someone who was somewhat compatible and during those non relationship times its rough. I spent alot of those times hanging out w friends and acquaintances until I found someone I really liked... It was frustrating bc I wanted to meet a nice guy who i was into..That def takes time. Hang in there..In time it will get better. Just figure out what u want and keep ur eyes peeled until u find it![]()



<<--Definitely depressed. Odd, because I usually snap back once winter ends. Just at the point of going back on meds. Boo hiss.




I mentioned this to another person on SW that first u have to be somewhat healed before ur even in the right mindset to be able to engage and deal w another guy. U have to get over the last one's bs and damage as much as possible so that u have a somnewhat open composed version of urself to offer to a new person. When I was in between relationships I did meet a couple really nice guys but bc the previous relationship was still upsetting me the guy didnt see me in a good light. He saw me as a hurt upset mess which is exactly what I was..But in no way am I saying thats what u r now bc frankly for as young as u prolly r I think ur doing a great job. Just remember this job is a job of isolation. Even now after yearss of doing this job I feel the isolation w or w/out a SO. U have alot to offer the right person. What I have come to the realization over time is if u dont demand alot u will get below par treatment. I have certain expectations of how I want to be treated things dont always go as planned but i do have standards.
Kisca try not to compare yourself to others because you will never win. Write down some goals & work towards them. That will give you a since of accomplishment & if the guy your into is a tool do things without him & if he's into you he will feel left out. You never know you may meet someone else.
Summer has traditionally been a depressing time for me, ever since I was an adolescent. I always felt two extremes: either I was fucking bored out of my skull, sitting around all day on the computer, TV, eating unnecessarily, on the phone. Even if I did hang out with my friends, it was only part of the day and if it was all day we didn't do much together either but laze around. The other extreme was being too busy, working every day, taking summer school, working out, taking care of business, and I was too tired to actually enjoy my "summer." Summer is my least favorite season and always has been. There's too much free time and everyone around me seems to be having a jolly good time partying every night. I think in one of my past lives, something sad happened to me during the summer, because it depresses me, even though the weather is beautiful.
Summer generally makes me feel better, because of the sun and the good weather etc, BUT it does depress me not having people to do summer stuff with. Like I see people all having fun together on the beach, or kicking a ball around in the park, drinking at an outside bar etc, and it makes me. But I just don't really have any friends I guess
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I've noticed i have been the same way. Sucks since ive done so well off my meds. But i feel stoned and spacey (fyi I am not stoned, just feel like it). I am tired and unmotivated. And its so nice out!
So today I said skrew it- if a little pill makes a whole lotta difference- Iam going back on them. If you get too depressed I really do recommend getting on some. It may suck and you may not want to--but you will feel much better and be able to enjoy the things aroind you![]()
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