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Nothings better than hiding true lives. My day job is also my dream job. No one would ever believe me even if I told them I am a dancer. Too bad to many people out there think dancers are uneducated and are only out to step husbands. I guess I hide behind my degrees and glasses so only my true friends can see the truth.
The whole hiding thing starts to really wear on you after awhile. One of the primary reasons I retired from dancing. For me I found that it affected every part of my life; the friendships I made, the guys I was into, even something as simple as small talk with someone at Starbucks required lying. I don't know about you but I found it hard to lie on a daily basis; I'm a very sincere type person and when you talk to me it comes through; having a life where half of it was covert just wasn't for me.





^ I can relate. Whenever someone I know asks me about work, I feel anxious.
The other day, I was talking to the pizza delivery guy, and he was like "so do you work during the day?" And I was like "uhh, yeah usually" and he asked me where I worked and I told him the grocery store down the street (where I used to work), and whenever someone like him is questioning me about work, I always freak out that they recognize me from cam or something.
Yeah when I was in school, it made me far more nervous than happy. I'd be walking around campus and whenever work came to mind, I'd start thinking "Oh god, what if someone here recognizes me as the stripper from last night??" I was so glad to graduate and be gone from that city!


I go back and forth, sometimes I like knowing that it is my own little shocking secret, and other times I am really worried that someone will find out.
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