Hey people! I'm posting this in a sense of ranting and venting, mostly, as well as sharing what I feel, which may sound a bit lame but, still, can't shake it off :/
You see, the plan is that I'm starting as a webcam girl in about two or three months, I've been planning it on everything I could: hardware (which I'm covered up so far, except for the webcam), high speed internet connection, clothing, lightning, some sex toys, professional makeup lessons, organizing my shifts and schedules, promoting myself around the web, etc.
But I know some girls who just tell me that it might not work since many times this webcam thing tends to be a bit slow and I might not even cover up the essentials (i.e. earning $1,600USD a month to cover up bills, live on my own and have money saved for emergencies) and I might get into financial issues.
While it's true that some days tend to be slow, I've made estimations, if I work hard, even if it's on slow days, I could make it (8 hours a day, 6 days a week, exhausting isn't it? But better be safe than sorry), maybe I could make it, maybe not, but idk, it's just that, sometimes I feel worried that things won't work out and I'll have to improvise something, it's something that both scares me and motivates me to work harder.
I see the thread about weekly earnings and think "if these girls can do it working less time than me, then perhaps I might be able to at least not get into financial issues if I work hard enough and dedicate into this as I should", still the fear resides inside my head.
I guess it's some kind of motivation to push me into working hard, to try, strive and put a real effort and dedication into it, feeling like this is a huge chance to achive my goals in life and can't let it go, or I'll regret it.
I don't know if I'm making any sense but, has anyone ever felt this way? I mean, the fact that I'm transgender kinda puts me in this strange situation where I feel I won't get enough customers, unless I work harder to promote myself, but I keep thinking "there's a girl who has two children and she does this for them, she can do it, so why I can't be successful at this?".
There's a phrase: Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mistery, today is a gift, that's why they call it present. It makes me feel like I shouldn't worry about that and keep fighting, they told me once "never let anyone tells you you can't do something, prove them wrong".
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Can I get a hug or some words of wisdom?
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glad you did some research before hand that will definitely help you!


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