It is now 3am and Im going to bed hurt...I am from a family that has been through a lot but at the end can count on each other when we need it. That is in Sacramento. Well im in san francisco with my extended family and I overheard a my cousin's phone conversation that made him dead to me! So here is what happened...Ill take you to the beginning..I quit dancing almost a year ago and I had to move in with my uncle..Since than I got a real job, I went back to school and got 2 certs in personal training, I ve been promotional modeling for extra money, and fuck it why not (Ive started camming) at least im safe and not have to look and worry about men touching me! So anyway Tonight...I was watching tv in the living room and he was lying down on the couch on the phone(I wasnt paying attention). So he asks me to watch it in my room(his old room) cuz hes going to bed. i say "oh your going to bed" and he says rudely "yeah kinda!" so being the sassy sista that i am I say well sorry the tv was just on didnt know but dont be an ass!..and we start bickering (were cousins its what we do its normal). I go to my room thinking nothing of it! So This cousin has berly talked to me when i was dancing, always had a judgemeantal look on his face when im around and when I quit he still treated me like shit! ( He never had a place where he pays full rent his dad pays for most of his shit including his parking tickets) I Think nothing of the discustion and go to my room. I got back out to do dishes and I over hear him on the phone talking to his friend " shes hella weird sitting there listening to my conversation(negro please) shes living in MY house(thats a laugh), she doesnt pay rent , her room is a mess( that part is true..ive never home and when I am Im in bed deprressed), we all know what shes doing( I assume he thinks im still dancing) and I know he tells all his friends about my past because they all look at me the same
way. Im in the corner furious!! Ive been homeless, doing crazy drugs, almost forced into prostitution, and fired from my last job because they found out about my past..I should be crazy as fuck right now! So the fact that all you have to complain about is that my room is messy is pretty much a miricle! So I walk up to him and say "hey, the next time u wanna talk shit about me to your friends..SAY IT TO MY FACE FIRST! You dont know me, you dont know what I been through, and you dont know why my room is like it is!" Snd he gos " OK OK" being the smart ass that he is..I finish saying " your not my cousin! Just so you know" and I mean it! He never did a thing on his own without daddy's help! Ive been on a hustler since I am 19. Im moving to a beautiful neighborhood next month, Im gonna start studying for my 3rd cert! and Im going to go way farther in life because of my experiences! So HOW DARE HE! Hes dead to me! Hes gone! I cant call anyone right now because its so late so Im really glad I have this site to vent on! Even if I am camming on the side,I did and going to do way more in my life that he ever will! I learned the lessons that I needed to learn and ready to keep learning let him chock from his ignorance! Thank you and I could really use some advice about how to deal with my not-cousin.



) and I know he tells all his friends about my past because they all look at me the same
way. Im in the corner furious!! Ive been homeless, doing crazy drugs, almost forced into prostitution, and fired from my last job because they found out about my past..I should be crazy as fuck right now! So the fact that all you have to complain about is that my room is messy is pretty much a miricle! So I walk up to him and say "hey, the next time u wanna talk shit about me to your friends..SAY IT TO MY FACE FIRST! You dont know me, you dont know what I been through, and you dont know why my room is like it is!" Snd he gos " OK OK" being the smart ass that he is..I finish saying " your not my cousin! Just so you know" and I mean it! He never did a thing on his own without daddy's help! Ive been on a hustler since I am 19. Im moving to a beautiful neighborhood next month, Im gonna start studying for my 3rd cert! and Im going to go way farther in life because of my experiences! So HOW DARE HE! Hes dead to me! Hes gone! I cant call anyone right now because its so late so Im really glad I have this site to vent on! Even if I am camming on the side,I did and going to do way more in my life that he ever will! I learned the lessons that I needed to learn and ready to keep learning let him chock from his ignorance! Thank you and I could really use some advice about how to deal with my not-cousin.
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i think we'd be at a better place.i like wat u said bout findin comfort here,'well not in those words exactly,' i feel the same way too.this to me is like a family i never had.i love all the people on here cuz wen m feelin down i know where to go to get uplifted
.i always come out feelin better.i think in life much as we wnt other peoples approval we shud look out 4 #1 n thts us.u'll never make people happy.u do gud they find sumthin negative to say u do bad they still have sumthin negative to say,u can never win. c wat yo cousin is doin as motivation to progress further,achieve mo so tht wen one day he's sittin there talkin bout how dirty he thinks u r cuz of yo past u be livin a more comfortable life than he has ever dreamed of even in his wildest dreams,thts wat i do thts wat keeps me goin tht n knowin m doin this 4 my daughter n myself.go look yoself in the mirror n remeber me sayin this to u.i know u've never heard my voice but jus do it."U R A BEAUTIFUL N INTELLIGENT WOMAN.U'VE BEEN THRU A LOT BUT IT NEVER KILLED U IT ONLY MADE U STRONGER.N WATEVER YO COUSIN THINKS OR HOWEVER HE FEELS, HE CAN NEVER TAKE THT FROM U.DNT LET HIM TAKE YO HAPPINESS AWAY




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