Why the hell can't I say no?
"No I can't meet that deadline." "No I can't make an appearance at your event." "No I can't drive you there/pick you up."
It should be as simple as that. But rather than saying no, I just want to bury my head in the sand and stop dealing with people who want or expect something from me.
I don't know if this is something everyone goes through at some point, but it is making me legitimately depressed.
I don't even know if the problems I have are just in my head or if they're real things. I feel so stressed out and upset but I can't put my finger on why, other than the fact that I hate letting people down.
It's to the point where I can't take a compliment from a well-meaning person, because it just creates another expectation.
"You're so smart!" Then I'd better bring up my GPA.
"You look pretty today!" I'd better start looking this good every day.
"Your Spanish is really good, you'll be fine over there." I'd better not ask someone to repeat themselves or speak more slowly.
But this is becoming a tangent.
I'm just miserable today and I needed a space to vent.



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