I've been dancing for five years and I've been in college for three. I love being in school and studying. That's the world I belong to, not this one. I'm so tired of being a "stripper". I can't seem to forgive myself for it. I know there's nothing wrong with the job. I'm not doing anything illegal by dancing, but the stigma is still there. I'm ashamed that I have to always lie about where I work to people. I haven't been on a date in at least three years and I can't even make friends at school because in the back of my mind I'm thinking, "What if they found out what I do for a living?" I don't regret becoming a dancer because its the only way I can afford school and still have time to study, but I'm so ready to be rid of it and get a job I can be proud of.
Thing is... when I graduate in two years it won't end there. I'm going to need even more money and more time to study for grad school which is another four years. Add that time on and I'm looking at at least six more years of stripping! I try and just go one day at a time, but thinking that I have to deal with these creeps for that much longer is enough to make me utterly depressed.
Are there any other girls out there who feel trapped like I do?



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There goes my whole Giant-Clay-Willendorf-Venus project!


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