a bit more then three years ago i got a shot of depo-provera. i was living in spain then, i was out of my pill supply, went to get a new prescription and instead of getting one, i got a depo-provera shot. ive been on pill since i was 14 or 15. without those, my periods were 10-12 days, every 26 days, accompanied with cramps and diarrhoea; lovely, isnt it. that doc in spain told me depo-provera would make my periods go away for 3 months and told me all kind of stories of how much better that depo-provera would be. instead of that i was bleeding non stop for four months. i used to be quite slim, im 6ft tall and was 130lbs. in first two months some 75 or 80 lbs came along with that non stop bleeding. as soon as i noticed that ive started gaining weight, i started eating rice and veggies only, it usually helped me before that if i gained a few extra. this time it didnt do the trick.
now i have the most amazing thing, IUD (mirena) and have no periods at all.
BUT. i still have all that fat. it just wont go away.
i cant do most of sports things, as doctors say - i should be happy that i can walk. i was in a serious accident in my early twenties and after three surgeries my spine now has a few pieces of titanium and yes, i can walk. but i cant go to gym, i cant even jog, i cant lift anything heavy. well, i can swim though. so thats what ive been doing for the past year thee times a week, for almost two hours each time. nothing in my weight has changed.
i havent had a proper meal ever since i started getting that weight. ive been hungry for over three years now.
i went to see the plastic surgeon who did my nose several years ago. asked him about lipo. he said that to get me back into my original shape it would take at least four times of full lipo. that there is no way to remove that much fat in one procedure. and ohmigosh, it would cost a fortune.
oh, but my gp said something like - hey, you are over thirty, what did you expect, people gain weight when they are over thirty!
i was size 10-12 (uk). now im 18.
im soooo tired of being fat.
well, at least my boobies went from a small B to a big D, sometimes DD.
and almost 220lbs isnt my dream weight. no way. no way. i dont want to look like that forever. being 6ft tall has been enough already, thats not something i can change in this lifetime, but all that fat... no, no, no.
and i just dont know what to do. seems like nothing works.
oh, and to add to all this, i was kicked off one camsite for not being "fit enough".



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