So Thursday night, my GM started training me on some different points for going into management. This wasn't my initial career path (as many of you know I was in school to become a doctor, but was forced to drop out), but it is one I'm familiar with and have come to love.
I adore my girls, my peers I work with etc etc. My GM praises me for my financial and dance count accuracy, but tonight I dropped the ball. My severe ADD is killing me. I've been off my adderrall for six months because I didn't have insurance until a month ago. I know I need to find a new GP, but I haven't had the time because I'm devoting all my time to work. Tonight, I was nearly $100 off on my work financials. I went over and over the receipts, and couldn't find the mistake. My brain was so scattered, I think I rang some things wrong, and my running math may have been off. I've been accurate to the PENNY for the entire time I've been working for him, and I'm worried my GM will think I'm slacking, not serious, or a bad candidate due to my stupid ADD. He wasn't angry with me, and I admitted I wasn't on point but it's weighing heavily on my mind.
I also have my husband's reputation to uphold. He is well respected and liked in the company. He recently got a major raise and is next in line for promotion. I'm worried because of my error, it will reflect badly on him.
In addition,my girls ALWAYS come first. I stand up for them in times if difficulty and dispute, which is not always what management favors, and worry they will see me only as " the retired stripper " when it's that I truly believe the girls are the essence of the business. If the girls are unhappy, they'll bounce, so why aren't more dedicated to doing right by them???? I know how it feels to be done wrong by management, so I trend towards their sides.
Lastly, recently I had to tell the truth about a girl in high standing for doing something any dancer would find appalling. The girl in question ruined a well meaning, but poorly responding manager's reputation. Even though I told my GM about it, the damage is done and I told the truth to late to go to bat for a good, decent member of the company. I'm stressing this makes me look bad and like a keeper of terrible information.
Ugh. This transition is difficult. Any words of advice from former or current dancers, customers or management alike would help improve my morale.![]()



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Take comfort in that.

And coming from me, that's saying a lot considering I've been on the recieving end of dirty managers.

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