Well it's complicated I guess. We've been together three years. I've been travelling for 5 months (I work in conservation in Peru and then visited family in australia) and about 2 weeks before I came back I sorta... went out with one of my uncles (young) friends who I'd never met before and we hit it off and I don't know why but I drunk a lot and let him sleep with me. I felt awful. I was supposed to be moving in with my boyfriend in December to a flat in Bristol and do some dancing there and then in February I'm moving to Peru permanently and he was going to follow me when he could. I guess I shouldn't have told him, but we're really close and he looked me right in the eyes and asked me if i'd cheated on him and I said yes... And I told him I was drunk, on meth, in a strange city at a strange hour etc. but it doesn't make it any better - it's done for us...
Honestly, maybe I should have just broken up with him straight off and saved both of our hearts (I tried but he wouldn't let me).
Now I'm back in the UK (should have stayed in Aus much better $$), boyfriendless, soon to be homeless :/ until I move to Peru in February.
I'll probably find a cheap flat in ANY city and get back to dancing. Bitch gotta eat, after all.... anyone got any room?
Anyway, just wanted to get it off my chest. I feel awful for cheating. I'm a bad person. Everyone makes mistakes... but not him :/



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It shall be okay love.

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