Hi. I'm new here! Well, not exactly. I just created a new alias so I could remain more anonymous when I post my private issues up on SW.
Anyway, I've been having some relationship problems and I don't know who to talk to about this. I'm really nervous about my options. It could be quite dangerous actually.
I've been dating this guy for the past 5 months. I've actually known him for over 10 years. We knew each other from high school and had the same group of friends. This was my first boyfriend in years and I reacted rather quickly with him. He didn't have a job or a car but I knew he was a good dude. He had a home but it was all worn down and he liked my house a lot. Once we started dating, he just never left my house. We enjoyed each others company and then we decided that he was just gonna move in. Because he lived kinda far and didn't have a vehicle. We would have never seen each other much. So he moved in...
He knows I webcam from home. At first I would cam while he waited in the other room but I don't have much to keep him entertained. We decided pretty quickly to start camming together and split everything 50/50. So right away, we lived together and worked together.
It was great for a few months. I stopped camming solo and would only cam with him. But since September, he's been kinda a dick to me lately. We haven't been working that much because we fight almost every day and even though its not the smart thing to do, when he really gets me mad/sad, I cannot even get on cam at all. I'll get all angry and suddenly not care if I don't have money. For the past few months, I have been sad this whole time and not wanting to work, while he yells at me and when we have money, he wants to spend it on weed. We almost got kicked out of this apartment a few times because we're late on rent all the time now. I lived here for 2 years and was never late on rent till he came along and even though that's part my fault, it's an issue.
But my main issue is that I don't feel the same way about him anymore. I want to break up with him but we owe my mom my last months rent plus owe on next months rent and he has a pretty bad temper. We have nothing in common, I'm bored, he manipulates me, emotionally abuses me, one time he choked me out, he has threatened to kill my dog during arguments and he hates my mother, only because he doesn't like authority figures. They got into an argument and raised their voices at each other.
If I don't have next months rent then I am kicked out. Plus I owe my mom in a few days, which I don't have it. I can't afford to get kicked out and this is the best place I ever lived in. I'm proud of my home. But he does have a good heart at times too and I don't wanna just kick him out on the streets. I know he cares about me. I made him cry before he gets emotional about me. He says I'm the best thing that's ever happened to him and he wants to talk to someone about his anger and get on medication or something. But even if he wasn't so angry all the time, I just no longer feel a connection with him and I want out.
But I'm afraid if I broke up with him then he would not help me with next months rent or help pay my mom back. I've tried working solo again since I decided to break up with him, but somehow I went from solo $40 an hour to solo $5 an hour. I'll get kicked out next month if he doesn't help me.
Another thing I'm worried about is he might hurt my dog if I broke up with him. I could send my dog away for a few days but my boyfriend will be screwed too if we broke up. He would be jobless again without a place to live. I was thinking about waiting till we're all caught up on bills and then make sure we both have a few hundred in each of our pockets before I break up with him. But that could take a month or two. I really want my independence back now.
I feel so lonely and have no one to talk to about this. That's why I'm ranting to stripperweb. Could anyone help me figure out what to do?![]()



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