So some of you may know from my previous threads....but I'll describe my situation a bit more because I need advice!
I danced for 5 years while I was in school. I danced 4-5 times a week, so it was pretty much what I would call full time. My last semester of law school, I met ( what I thought was) the man of my dreams. He didn't appreciate that I was dancing...so I told myself that it was time to stop since I was finishing up with law school anyway.
Long story short, I've been struggling with missing dancing A LOT since I quit about a year ago. It was a taboo topic in our relationship and I could never really talk about it in an open way with him. I missed it to the point where it seemed like an addiction...I really missed it as an outlet to have fun and let loose and to forget about my more "serious" side. I always thought I'd wanna go back if it wasn't for him.
Well we broke up a week ago, for other unrelated reasons. Now that I actually could go back to dancing, I'm having second thoughts. I feel like I was really caught up into dancing to the point where it was really bothering me not to be able to do it. For some time it was all I could think about...almost to the point where I wanted to to do it behind his back. Well now that I could go back, I'm not even sure if I want to. It seems like it took me so long to be "free" from that addiction that I'm scared if I go back I won't be able to get out again. Like, quitting for me the first time was so hard I'm not sure if I want to put myself through that again.Because of my career, I can't really be a career stripper.
I don't really need the money, I have a great office job that I like. I would have to go out of town so I don't run into anyone. I'm just not sure whether it's worth it or not. I guess maybe it was so appealing to me because I felt like I wasn't "allowed" to and now that I actually can it lost its appeal?
Any thoughts?



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