This is how I feel. I feel like I'm just a worthless person taking up space in this world. I just feel like things won't ever get better because of my financial situation. I decided to trying camming to make money because I can't find an outside job to pay the bills. I am back in school but won't graduate for awhile and in the mean time I have to support myself and my son. I want to thank all the those that responded to my post about getting started camming and I finally got set up with MFC and I'm awaiting approval from SM and hope to get started in the next few days. I am hoping that between camming and working as a PSO I will be able to pay the rent and support myself and my son. I got a 5 day notice from my landlord but thankfully my mother stepped in and paid my rent for December even though her money is tight so I just have to concentrate on January's rent. I am crying as a type this b/c I just feel horrible about my life b/c I know I should be further ahead than I am. I can't even get my son a gift for Christmas and that really hurts me. Christmas will come and go and he will get nothing.He's 15 and he doesn't ask for much and the little he wants I can't get. I can't even afford the basics like underwear and shoes. I won't tell my age b/c its embarrassing to be my age and not have anything. I don't even have furniture in my apartment and just a few weeks ago my son and I were sleeping on the floor until my mother bought us beds. I hope that camming can help me financially though I am really nervous about being on cam because I'm fat and don't know if I will do well. I am willing to try though b/c I have no other options. I just want to be happy and take care of my son the way he should be taken care of. Being dirt poor has affected us horribly and has caused my son to be depressed. At the age of 15 I hear him and see him cry and guys that age normally don't cry so I know he's hurting. Thank you for letting come here and vent about my problems. I don't have anyone to talk to about this and sometimes it's hard keeping it bottled up inside.



He's 15 and he doesn't ask for much and the little he wants I can't get. I can't even afford the basics like underwear and shoes. I won't tell my age b/c its embarrassing to be my age and not have anything. I don't even have furniture in my apartment and just a few weeks ago my son and I were sleeping on the floor until my mother bought us beds. I hope that camming can help me financially though I am really nervous about being on cam because I'm fat and don't know if I will do well. I am willing to try though b/c I have no other options. I just want to be happy and take care of my son the way he should be taken care of. Being dirt poor has affected us horribly and has caused my son to be depressed. At the age of 15 I hear him and see him cry and guys that age normally don't cry so I know he's hurting. Thank you for letting come here and vent about my problems. I don't have anyone to talk to about this and sometimes it's hard keeping it bottled up inside.
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