First off, I've been posting too frequently in this section, so sorry. But that's just how my life works anyway; I go through difficult periods in which everything seems to go wrong all at once before the shit storm clears up. I'll try to keep this short.
I'm going through a change in life when I question everything and everyone I've surrounded myself with. When I came back to my home town, (I've only been gone for 6 months) almost everyone has told me they barely recognized me and that both my body and personality have really, really changed....which is true. I've reinvented myself many times before, but this time, I feel like I've gone through such a huge change that I've abandoned everyone I used to keep close to me. I no longer relate to hardly any of my friends and I'm realizing most of my relationships were very toxic. A true test of this was confessing to everyone that I'm a dancer. For example, I visited the restaurant I used to work for and said hi to some old coworkers...who all gave me the evil eye and then whispered about strippers as I was walking away. Which is fine; I realize I worked in a very conservative environment and that I was never close to most of them anyway.
The point is, I've gone through such a drastic transformation, yet I've built my life around my family, friends and past occupation....all of which I no longer relate to, at all. And now I'm going through that depressing isolation as I form new relationships, new hobbies, etc. It's like I'm completely rebuilding me and it takes time, but meanwhile, it's difficult. Has anyone experienced something similar?



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