my boyfriend has been gone for eight days...has not came home or even SPOKEN or CALLED or TEXTED, my car broke down too. so even though just today the neighbor gave me an address-i didn't go to find hiim..
and then i realized SCREW THAT. i am not wasting my time going to get him like i'm his babysitter. i am waiting to see how long it will take for him to actually come home. i have not texted or called him in three days. i feel heartbroken and foolish for staying with him. but since he's been gone, i've been leaning more and more on God, and He really does comfort me and strengthens me. what do you guys suggest i do? continue doing what i'm doing or go look for him??anyone gone through this before?
oh yea just for background info, he has MY phone. and on the computer he accidentally didn't logout of the email account that i did not know about.. and so since i've had that gut feeling for awhile...i looked inside and there were actual emails he wrote soliciting sex to the casual encounters on craigslist...i confronted him about it and he acted like he had no idea..the emails dated back a few months to a time when we broke up and had two of his phone numbers written in the emails..and those phone numbers are prepaid and his accounts are secured and encrypted so there's really no other plausible explanation except that he cheated and got caught has no excuse..
feels like he's trying to show me for the millionth time that he DOES NOT WANT TO BE WITH ME, and wants me to just go so that he doesn't have to make the painful decision on his conscience of breaking up with me. so am i still here out of pride and spite? that is funny sort of.
there was a time (when he was locked up for about a year) when he told me i was the air he breathed..and that he loved me..for a few months after release everything was great until he started doing drugs and leaving me at home for days...also he has forgiven ME for cheating on him, but that's another really long story..



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