Well, maybe not a hex but this has been the worst 2 weeks of my life. I will list in order, all the BS I went through and why I am quitting the adult industry.
Prior to the series of unfortunate events, I recently got out of an abusive relationship. I sent his ass to jail and don't regret my decision. We webcammed together on a popular site but didn't do so well. He also took out a webcam loan and I didn't know about it till the next day but shortly after, i sent him to jail for domestic violence. I wasn't able to pay my loan and the money was spent. I did not make any money on my own. I don't strip or escort and I almost escorted but decided against it. There are no strip clubs in my area and i don't have a vehicle. So I started camming solo and just toughed it out till I got my first check, which was a few weeks away and I needed cash right away for rent. I didn't have it but I was happy because I started camming with the same site on my own and made $50 an hr which is double the amount my ex and I made together. I was so happy. Then I closed the couples account and was going to finally get back on my feet. Two days later, shit started to hit the fan.
2/22/12- I got fired from the cam site i work with. Not permanently but just till I paid off the loan I took out with them. I had no money and my check wasn't going to arrive for a few weeks. I asked my mom if she could loan me the amount for the loan just so i can get back to work cause I was afraid I was gonna get kicked out of the house. She let me borrow money but it took a week till i could get that. Once I paid off the loan, my account was active again. Unfortunately, because of this, I wasn't able to afford my rent for the month.
2/22/12- Later in the evening, my new boyfriend calls me. He's not a new boyfriend, he's the man I someday hope to marry. We have been together for 7 years but he broke up with me a year ago to move across country because his health wasn't good and he needed particular treatment. 6 months later, i got a new bf (the abusive one) and that didn't last long. But later that night, he called me and told me that he never wanted to talk to me again because the night prior, he stopped by when I was sleeping. He for some reason thought I was cheating on him with my ex who was in jail because he heard me yell through the door that "I'm busy'' and then he heard my land ladys 15 yr old son who lives downstairs talking. He thought it sounded like my ex and long story short, it was a misunderstanding. I don't even remember waking up to say "I'm busy". So we didn't talk for a few days but he's a good guy, not controlling or jealous. It was just bad timing and confusion.
2/23/12- My dog passed away. He's very old and has been with me since he was a puppy. I felt like he was a son to me.
2/25/12- I finally paid the loan off and my cam account was active again but I was too depressed to perform.
2/25/12- An old friend stopped by my house with a new friend neither of us knew that well. It was the first time meeting this guy. I wouldn't even remember his name if he didn't request me as a friend on facebook.
2/26/12- The police stopped by my house randomly. They were undercover officers with no uniform and no police car. But they stopped by, looking for me and then they harassed my land lady's son. They bound him down and he's only 15 yrs old. Why? Because they were looking for the guy my friend brought over the night before. What's weird about this is that neither of them actually know my address and I don't know why anyone would think that I even know who that guy was cause I only met him for maybe a couple hrs. But the cops thought I was hiding him and they even got a warrant, went through the house and harassed my land ladys son.
2/27/12- My land lady decides to tell me that i gotta move out by June 1st. This was horrible news for me because I've been at this house for 3 years, its the best place I've ever lived and a week before this happened, i said to myself that I am so proud to live all alone in this wonderful house. This house is perfect for me and i love this place so much. i have to move out because the cops harassed her son and since I called the cops on my ex a couple months ago, she doesn't want to have to deal with me anymore.
3/1/12- I pay only half my rent and still haven't been working because I'm too depressed. This is my fault though because I need to get off my ass and work.
3/3/12- My house was broken into. My nice tv was stolen, my 2 laptops stolen, jewelry stolen, versace sunglasses stolen, my weed was stolen, about $600 worth of art also stolen. And the word "Whore" was spray painted on my wall. Cops for a third time, had to come back. I never had to deal with cops any time in my life but right now.
3/4/12- I discovered a bald spot on the back of my head. WTF?
3/5/12- I discovered 2 bald spots on my head and suddenly my hair rapidly started to fall out. I went to the doctor asap and I was diagnosed with a skin disorder called Alopecia Areata. I don't have insurance and my mom paid $100 for the service.
3/6/12- My mom told me that I'm ruining our relationship.
3/8/12- I am almost fully bald now. In a couple weeks, I will be fully bald and the doctor pretty much said there is only a 50/50 chance my hair will even grow back. And even if it does, this disorder is very spontaneous and he can't tell me when it would start growing back. There is no cure but this condition is not life threatening. It is life altering and I will now have to wear wigs possibly for the rest of my life.
Because of this, I have decided to retire from the adult industry. And I can kiss my dreams of becoming a hair stylist and esthetician good bye.
That is all I wanted to say. My boyfriend says he'll still be with me because I'm beautiful either way. I believe him. But this is literally the worst week of my life. the weirdest part is that I haven't even cried yet. I am still going through the shock part.



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fiy, i know some ladies with alopecia who do special hair extensions and wigs- you would have no idea they have it. they look fantastic. they specialize in working with women who have hair loss. i think that could be a good business angle for you- women get cancer, have alopecia, hair loss from stress, post-pregnancy, bad hair dye jobs, car accident, etc. i found these women's condition made their clientele more comfortable and not feel so alone.
Keep your head up girl

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