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    Default I can't handle it (warning...rant)

    I just can't. I can't handle free chat.

    I think I am actually going to go insane.

    I took a week break from camming as my internet broke, and it took me like...5 whole days to psych myself up to start camming again.

    I don't know what's wrong with me though. I have been doing this for a year and have been FINE...in fact I love it.

    I really absolutely love giving cam shows. It makes me so happy when someone tells me after (which they frequently do) that I gave them the best show they have ever had.

    But the last couple of weeks have been hell for me. I just can't motivate myself to go on cam, because I KNOW I will have to deal with these endless fucking MORONS asking me the SAME.QUESTIONS,OVER.AND.OVER.AGAIN.

    Do you escort bb, where do you live bb, can I get a twirl bb, anal bb, fist bb, sex with a dog bb? turn around bb? bend over bb, phone bb? im wanking while watching you in free is that ok bb? do you dom bb? turn on my cam bb? go on, just take a sneaky peek bb? pee bb? poo bb? vomit bb? do you have nice feet bb? can i check bb?

    I reckon I'm having a burn out at the moment, but god, I really can't afford to right now. I have bills to pay and I am in bad debt.

    I don't know how I am going to get through it and I am so miserable because camming is what I really want to do at the moment. I love the sex industry and I really want to do well, and I know that I can!

    Like...I know that if I put the effort in, I could easily make a good amount of money. I have done. In fact apart from the obvious, general bad days, whenever I put the effort in and work longer than 4-6 hours, I make great money.

    But for example today....I barely made $40. And the reason for that is because I didn't stay on longer than about 20 minutes at a time. In fact I was probably only online in total for an hour and a half. However I have been trying to work all day. I have been dressed, made up, and set up to work all day. And I have just put it off, and put it off.

    Then I would force myself to get on, stay on for ten minutes and then just log off.

    I'm so frustrated at myself. I think it's some sort of burn out. I think as well I am just a bit depressed or something. For the last week it's not just camming I can't motivate myself to do. It's pretty much EVERYTHING.

    I can barely motivate myself to get out of bed and stop watching awful endless bad tv shows.

    I dont really know what I'm hoping for by posting this here. I know no one can hold my hand and force me to just GET ONLINE. Hmm.

    Sorry.
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    I just want to say I totally sympathize with what you're going through. I took a whole month break. It was very hard for me to get back on but I did.
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    we all go through this... maybe not all? 99 %?
    do you feel a bit better now?

    I felt so "bleah!" today before I got online... I just did not want to move. i did not want to do anything.I just wanted to sit and zone out. The pressure of knowing you HAVE to do this and that is draining... just thinking of HAVING to do stuff makes me mentally tired before I even start lol
    But.. this is what I did today to snap out of it. I turned the music on and up. I cant help but feel good when I listen to "happy" music. Isnt the 6th sense what you feel.. what we feel.. or wait what # is that? lol
    anyway. you have to FEEL good before you start to do something that is a chore, including work. Work is a chore. it just is.
    What makes you feel good?
    Im pretty simple. Im easy to please so maybe thats why its easier for me to get back in the mood. (?!) Just having food to eat and a roof over my head, cloths on my back, gas in the car and some money in my pocket makes me feel like I;ve made it!

    Its HARD to get online when u THINK what you got to do online is HARD.
    Do you ( anyone.. someone)... think talking to the countless people who ask " ASS TITS.. before prv,, where u from"... a billion times is hard?
    Do you think having to tease/smile/act happy is hard?........ then you dont know what hard is..... starving is hard, living on the streets is hard... not having water to drink is hard. Millions of people on this planet suffer, like really suffer from these things.

    If you think whatever... WHATEVER ... you have to do is hard..... if you just for 1 second think that, its going to be hard.
    I said this before, but I dont mind saying it again : its all in your brain. and You;re in control of your brain, you really are.
    Brainwash yourself to believe its Easy breezy and it will be.

    You only have 1 life. Live it well. Live it happy. If you cant find any reason to be happy about, just be happy you;re still alive.

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    We all feel that way sometimes. I know I do I found switching sites helped for me.
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    Totaaaaally understand! I took a 5 month break since I was annoyed about everyone I had to deal with but going back on tonight. Eat a good meal, watch a movie, etc. to get you in a good mood so no one can break it.<3
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    Default Re: I can't handle it (warning...rant)

    Sounds like you are burnt out or maybe depressed. But honestly, all jobs are depressing sometimes. If it's not the sex industry aspect that bothers you, it sounds like you are just feeling unmotivated in general.

    If you can't afford to take a break, then just don't let yourself. Force yourself to work those 4-6 hours a day. If you are making great money you are lucky, some girls work 4 hours and only make 40$.

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    Hmm thanks guys. I feel a bit embarrassed and like I should delete that now. I was just splurging everything out.

    Fridays I totally, totally totally agree. It is all in my brain. Sometimes I feel like I really don't have the power to control how I feel...but I definitely do.

    I am feeling a bit better, I managed to stay on for a bit longer and did a couple of shows.

    Tomorrow I cant cam as I'm seeing the boy, so I will relax with him and get him to pamper me and then monday I will crack the whip on myself.

    Sorry for the rant ladies, I know we all feel like this sometimes. Thanks for the kind words.
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    I absolutely understand where you are coming from! Don't feel bad for ranting - we all post the odd "let it all out"! And it helps to let it out, rather than having negative feelings festering away inside...

    Sometimes I find that it is harder for me to get back on after a break, so "taking a break" actually can make it worse for me! If I get into a routine, it gets easier and easier for me to just keep going (just keep swimming....).

    If you really want to take a bit of a break, but can't afford to stop entirely, why not do clips for a little while? I mean really pump them out - film and load several every day....its like giving shows, and no free chat! I love clips....although I do love the social interaction of actually being live on cam, so I wouldn't want to be just filming....
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    Quote Originally Posted by ManyRoses View Post
    If you really want to take a bit of a break, but can't afford to stop entirely, why not do clips for a little while? I mean really pump them out - film and load several every day....its like giving shows, and no free chat! I love clips....although I do love the social interaction of actually being live on cam, so I wouldn't want to be just filming....
    I can so relate to hating free chat!

    and the clips idea is a good one, plus there are several sites that don't have free chat. It takes me way longer to make money but sometimes I don't mind staying on 10 hours just to have a break from the free chat monkeys.


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    I know what you mean, and don't feel bad about needing to say something. Sometimes other cam girls are the only support we have.

    This week has been like that for me. It's endless with the scammers, beggars, and mean "customers" who get off on being rude. It seems to be getting worse and worse. I tolerate it really well for a while, but it just seems to build up over time until I feel like I'm going to explode. Then I think, "I'm a nice person. I don't deserve this." And then I have to step away for a while.

    Last night and today I thought I was going to do really well, but it was rough on there. I was watching one of my favorite models do a countdown. She was advertising her Twitter hardcore (verbally), writing her Twitter name down, typing in the name of the site she's going to be selling videos on, and referring guys to her Twitter to use her Chip In to "help me get my friend a plan ticket so we can do girl/girl shows." This is someone whose hustle I used to respect. But she's now joined the ranks of the rule-breakers and people running scams ($2000 for a plane ticket from Europe? And she says she already did shows with this girls, but her customers keep saying they never saw her do a girl/girl show. How did they ALL miss it?). I know SM won't do anything about it even if models tell them.

    I get all psyched up to do a show, then I see something like that and I think "what's the point?" And I feel helpless to deal with the direction the site is going in. I get overwhelmed and my attitude suffers. It's a cycle. I just have to think about all the money I can make if I stay on and stay positive.

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    Invest time in freechat optional sites and clips. Even phone. SW can be a freechat mandatory sites (only) zone, that isnt the only way.





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    I agree with Roast. Free chat was burning me the hell out, too. I still cam on Streamate, but I spend a LOT of time investing in free chat optional sites. It *really* saved me! I really enjoy it, too.. . it is truly like running your OWN business. On the downtime in between shows--you can study html, coding for your blog/etc, marketing, banners, research your niche, email your clientbase, etc.

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    I agree with both Fridays and Roast Post.....

    You have to kind of psyche your mind out when it comes to doing the same 'work" over and over..Especially the word "work" makes me think I have to do it and that alone is like ughhhh. So I focus on the stuff I bought/did or will buy/do from the money made instead of the job alone when I am not feeling like working.

    I will start off reading something inspiring online and looking up things I am trying to do or get ..Followed by getting my mood going with some music and maybe wine if I need some while I am getting ready... So while I am getting ready I am dancing and sipping and grooving to my music that I am not thinking too hard about the work aspect of it...It does help alot.

    Now when it comes to being on Free Chat do whatever you need to do to make your free chat tolerable.

    If that means.... Not putting too much attention on Free Chat and only answering certain questions here and there so be it...

    If that means browsing the web while in Free Chat so be it...

    If that means ignoring the room for awhile and listening to your music while in Free Chat so be it.

    If that means muting your room and only doing audio in private so you can watch tv in the background so be it..LOL


    Hey it's your world baby..lol I know some will say you won't make money or this and that doing it like this but you won't make money if you are to stressed to even get online and work too...Plus you never know how it may work for you. You can switch up your free chat style daily to prevent burnout...

    And then some days you can go back to being the very attentive camgirl engaging the guys and all that...

    Though having sound/talking/ and being very engaging makes more money....Not having sound or having sound only in private and just typing which you can use a text type program to quick reply the same ole questions....will still make you money as well...maybe not as much and as quick as the other but hey. You are less stressed and probably can stay on longer those days anyway to make more eventually..Trust! lol
    And yep optional free chat sites rock too..takes longer but it all adds up..lol
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    Another "hell yeah" for the backend (heh heh) approach to camming. Freechat is why I quit MFC. It totally put a damper on my exhibitionist streak. I dedicate 2 days a week tops to freechat and then NEVER longer than 3 hours straight (if I can stand it).

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