My fucking stream on CB is SO SLOW TODAY OH MY GOD.
My fucking stream on CB is SO SLOW TODAY OH MY GOD.
You painted a naked woman because you enjoyed looking at her, put a mirror in her hand and you called the painting “Vanity,” thus morally condemning the woman whose nakedness you had depicted for you own pleasure.” ― John Berger, Ways of Seeing
dude: humilate me bb
me: You suck



Things that piss me off :
When you're extra excited and I mean Amped to work. . Set a Nice Goal for the Week . .. Break it Down to what you need to do everyday to accomplish that goal with ease.
And then . .
You get On cam ... and its crickets! So you try to make the best of it and keep the goal in mind but your slowly getting discouraged and dying a little bit as the hours go by.
The worst thing is when your getting semi decent traffic but only 1 or 2 ppl per hour are biting. So I'm literally trying to milk each one to make sure I hit my hourly + some. Smiling through all the bullshit because the only way I'll be completely disappointed is if I dont continue to try.
On the 15th I made a whole 0.65 Cents![]()





Had a really great weekend now back to sitting on cam for 2 hours with NOTHING!.. lol oh the dread!





Camming sucks because I'm going through a bad case of ' burnout'.
I can barely get through 2 hours a day on cam. I make good money everytime I log on, but the time seems to d-r-a-g on.
My phone sex lines are busy, but I'm finding it sooo boring. All my custies are sissies, or bisexual men sneaking around getting dick, and it's all i can do to not just drive a fork through my neck.
Most of the callers have shitty phone reception, and speak low in that creepy, rapey type voice, so it's really a drag.
Anyway, just a bit of venting. Thanks for listening.![]()
Haha, this made me laugh. Sucks I feel the burn out when things aren't going well. Like today, I just wanna say fuck it and not bother, things are shitty today. revolving door of in and outs, one exclusive and guess who from? A sissy who wanted me to talk about what a cum dumpster he is. That's fine, he saved my ass but jesus, guys are being fucking assholes on SM today.
I feel you, I myself have been there a lot of times too.
This really helped me (I know its a long one, but so worth it.. at least for me it was): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CjMWcUQKtks
Its time to treat yourself well and take extra good care of You so after that you are being able to give back again ( to custies & receive.. in this case$) try to not be mad at youreself for feeling tired or angry etc (I know its hard!) instead find something that inspires you or educates you so you can find joy again in work
You can have everything in life you want, if you will just help enough other people get what they want - Zig Ziglar
"Be thankful for the troubles of your job. They provide about half your income Robert R. Updegraff
Camming sucks right now couse i have 2 huge NEW pimples in my face cheek and i can't seem to hide them... it makes me sad and anxiousgrr









Yes!! ^^ Thank youThat was great. First time I have listened to Tony Robbins.. really made a difference.
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I haven't been sleeping well for a while now so I'm really tired and on edge and streamate is SO dead for me this week, I'm just exhausted. and just now this dude in guest chat flat out said that he sat there jerking it for free and was imagining my lips around his (pathetic, I'm sure) dick and so he couldn't go pvt because he already came. I got so pissed off, blocked him and then logged off to cry. last straw.
I have been on for 4 hours and haven't gotten a single show.
been camming for 4+ hours at a time all week and haven't made more than $10 every single day, starting to feel super discouraged because all I can think about is "well if I had a better camera/lighting and more toys I'd be making the money I want out of camming" but I don't have the money to buy those things because nobody's buying any shows that last more than 3 minutes and I still need 300 dollars before the month is over and I'm just so stinkin frustrated with it all right now
^^^ it really is and I have my daughters tuition to pay but at this rate I won't be buying groceries.





Bleh .... UTI woes ..... the antibiotics ALWAYS make me feel horrible. I completely lost my libido which pisses me off . My muscles hurt so bad from the medicine and they kill my energy level too. I'm done taking them but my bf seems to forget about the effects / nausea . I can barely think straight on them !
You know what pisses me off? Having a weird illness (labyrinthitis) for the last 8 months that can take up to and well over a year to recover from, with frequent relapses. I'm stuck in this vicious cycle right now of feeling shitty... not being able to work... being poor... stressing about money... stress making me relapse... feeling shitty etc etc etc.
I just want to feel normal. Or to feel normal and not unexpectedly relapse. I never know when I wake up whether it will be a good day or a bad day.
I will never ever take my health for granted again once I do recover. It truly is all we have.
Thanks for letting me vent. I've been so upset the last few days!![]()
This week sucks! Dead on SM and not much better on Cams. Wtf! Are guys saving up for black friday or what? I dunno what the deal is, but it makes me not want to get on cam.


When a regular sits in your room and doesn't tip. It's like is it time to ban them?? I'm trying to run a GS and they can't even tip 5?? Maybe he realized I was never going to escort, like he keeps asking. these people keep pissing me offffff





It's totally like that. They buy blocks of time, usually 15 minutes, or more....and they expect ME to do all the talking.
The other day I was so fed up by the soul sucking drain, that I just started talking about something unrelated. I was rambling on about fashion,etc. Then I asked the slave if he agreed with what I just said...he said "Yes Mistress" He wasn't even listening to me! Wtf!
I kept silent and let him talk for the rest of the call.
Im def. Ready for some passive income. At least for a while.


What the actual fuck. I tried everything. Classic chat/party. Bitchygirl hustle. They all looked at me like I had 5 heads. WTF! What is with the traffic. Bunch of losers!
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