
Originally Posted by
KatM
Sorry for the hard time u have with ur hair anon, i feel for u cause i dealt with same situation but not because of my hair but son's hair; he started to loose hair while in high-school, must be a genetic thing, not sure, he has thin & rare hair, he dont have enough to style it properly so the gaps were visible & hard to cover, it was a real struggle for him to deal with this situation, he even wore a wig no kidding, it was difficult for me to understand what he feels cause i also believed it's not a big deal not to have the best hair.... but for him it was a huge deal cause he said "society is judging soo much on looks now, the standards for how u look are soo high between young people in school or at a regular job".
For a year now he's using minoxidil and it has good effect on him, new hair grew up on the portions he was missing hair, he says he is happier and i am happy too for him cause was painful to watch him suffer and struggle, he said "I could have done soo much more for my career and have soo much more confidence if i had the hair i wanted".
I feel the same regarding camming u know, "i could have made soo much more in my cam career if i had the face and body i wanted", luckily for him he can work around with the hair but for me, i cant change my face or body lol.
Even if i had the money i would not go for a surgery cause who knows what kind of monster i could see in the mirror when i wake up from surgery hahaa, too risky.
But u know what? After i understood a certain fact last year, the reason i have a particular figure, i decided i dont wanna give a fuck anymore, who wants and likes me fine, who dont, idgf, more of, i am happy when i have people adoring me and paying for my shows cause i feel proud and at a win thinking & feeling "i must have a lot of value for u if u pay me even i dont look like a top model".
It feels soo much better than trying to please them all and caring about their opinion. In my case, not knowing "what was wrong with me" was painful, it made me angry & sour cause i was often told 'i dont work hard enough', nobody had the courage to tell me "yes girl, u look 'unusual' and people are not attracted by the things they find 'unusual, unfamiliar", i mean u need a lot of confidence to have success knowing u not everyone's cup of tea.
It took years of struggle to get here no kidding, i had to understand my condition to let go on feeling insecure about myself & not pay attention anymore to what people say.
I feel soo much more confident now cause i still manage to pull money out men's pocked while not looking perfect but 'unusual' LOL.
I wish u the best in finding ur ways around hair issues, i know what it means when looks dictate the earnings.
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