camming sucks because I havent made a fucking penny in 4 hours. are you fucking kidding me? just time wasters and beggars on all sites. had someone scoff at my rates being $6/min on cams and then say "and nice fucking eyelashes?" I don't wear falsies and my makeup us always on point. what the fuck is going on.
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or I can choose to move on and leave it behind me."





Well I am getting lucky today.. maybe cuz I am sitting in silence? lmao
That was me exactly today. Tuesday i dove into the deep end of the deadpool that is SM this week. Thank fucking God I had vanilla work yesterday and today I had to go back to bed. bc I'm just tired from trying to make it for this month. Which I did much better, but didn't make what I needed. Now I'm forcing myself to try to put in the hours and just hoping it translates into $$, but when the beginning of my week is 230- I just want to give up.





After that traumatizing experience the other day , I am feeling REALLY depressed on cam today.. I don't know If I can work my full shift.. I can't believe it.. I haven't been this depressed in! I dunno a year or 2? to much to handle in one month.
well, it gets difficult to go on cam when u feel that is going to be bad and dead....but we need to keep going, bills dont pay themselves right?
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So glad I've revisited this thread because I've been depressing myself more and more by the day this week, wondering when I turned ugly lol. Three $0 days in a row from Sunday to Tuesday on 8 cam sites and more freeloaders than my brain could physically handle, I was perplexed to say the least. Then $100 yesterday out of the blue WTF?!
I give up trying to work out the psychology of all this, I log on and what will be, will be.
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I just couldn't bothered with SM today. I logged on this morning and spent about 4 hours on cam and made $26. It's exhausting and I've realised it's not worth it. I'm turning my attention away and putting all my energy into CMD and other indy sites. All the free chat I'm doing, or sitting there trying to get these fuckers to buy a show could be spent on better things - i.e. social media marketing to drive traffic to CMD.
I'll let you guys know how I get on...



-Idiot's 5th entrance into my room (clearly he is bouncing around)-
Me: do you want to go pvt?
Idiot: no thank u
Me: aww why not
Idiot: just being cheap
-blocks-


I've been having that too, last week was one of the best paying weeks i've had in months and this week i've made a whole $70 total. I think it is just luck, sometimes the right guys find you at the right times and bam your doing great when the rest of the day it was shitty.
Having one of those days where I literally wanted to block everyone. First, the silent users. Then scammers offering to "coach me" claiming they help girls earn 10k tokens per day but only have 31 followers...ok. Then cheapasses offering 1/4 of the amount of tokens listed on my tip menu for things and then complaining when I don't show them my boobs for 5 tokens. Then needy guys who tip for a PM under the guise of wanting a pvt but really just want to waste my time. Then the sleuths who try to figure out my location. After 3 hours of this bullshit and only $45 I said fuck it and left only to be repeatedly emailed by some guy that wanted me to lube myself with hair mousse and then stick a spatula in my pussy for $10. This day can fuck right off seriously.
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Sorry to hear, hope your day gets better.




Having a myriad of 'user connection issues' on SM today...ugh. Same few guys keep coming into my room but then the get booted...sucks, that could be $$$ in my pocket, especially since I have only gotten to broadcast for a couple hours this week and have made a measly $53.....
I guess its my turn to have a bad day. Hardly any traffic on SM and few shows, then 3 guys contact me on SKYPE thru CMD and pretend like they are interested in getting shows just to leave me hanging. I'm fucking done for the weekend.
Where are all the "what do your shows consist of" boys come from? No bitchboy, I will not say things that resemble dirty talk for you to get off on in free fucking chat. Read a fucking profile or ask for what you want.





Well I had a bad day today, it was going just fine til the doctor's office called asking if I switched my son's doctors.. unbenounced to me the insurance company automatically switched both my son's to a doctor we never seen before.. I was in a serious fucking panic for 2 hours trying to straighten out.. only because my youngest has type 1 diabetes.. and just don't fuck with his shit please.. because 2 days without insulin and he is either dead or in a coma.. so it is life threatening if the doctor can't get authorization for ANYTHING if they are not the fucking doctor anymore.. I hope it was straightened out.. 2 hours later and I am off to get a bottle of wine because my nerves are shot to hell.. one more traumatic experience under my belt.. and I quit drinking!.. so yea .. over the course of my camming for the next few hours I became more and more agitated and bitchy.. wine or guys? or traumatic experience.. who's to say. but this month is the fucking worst ever!.. I can't fucking relax... the worst thing in the world is to have a child that might die if they don't have their medicine and insurance companies playing games with your life... I will kill for my child.. I would move to a 1 bedroom apt and get a bus pass to pay for my son's insulin if I have to.. I have lived that life before.. to old to live that now and not mentally strong enough anymore.. it would probably kill me.. but I would still do it..
^^im so sorry. ((hugs))


Insurance companies are scum. I don't know where you are, AC, but in most states there are insulins available over the counter for cheap-ish prices, if this ever happens again and you need some quickly. You can get Novolin N, a long acting insulin, and Novolin R, a short/intermediate acting insulin, at Walmart pharmacies for about 25 bucks each. Obviously it's best to stick to whatever regimen the doctor has him on, but if you really need some before they stop being fuckers, you have options.
It could be more worse....but for a Friday night it is on a slow side......
The traffic was decent tonight for me on SM, but they were all just popping in & out. I did have a really good show, with a guy who was surprisingly hot





Ya def freeloader/beggar central on both sites on this lovely Friday night into sat morning deal. blahNot 1 fuckin show yet :/ i wanna give up & get some sleep then hop on again.
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Thanks, That's what my son was on when first diagnosed.. it's not quite the same kind of insulin and don't give the best outcomes, like you said it's best to stick with what your doctor prescribes for you.. he takes Novolog and Lantus Solostar.. we do have a stockpile of insulin as do all diabetic parents do.... we hoard supplies and insulin just in case... so I have plenty to last several months.. but it's still disconcerting that anything happens like this.. I live in FLorida.. and I do have to say once my son was 19 and off Florida Kidcare we had to go without insurance for a few months and the fact that his dad also stockpiled his supplies and insulin is how we got through til my son moved in with me and transitioned to an adult health insurance plan.. it's quite troublesome when they become adults and no longer under the umbrella of the child health insurance program.
Once again. Bored out of my skull. Can't wait until the day is over. Just trying to make it to the next hundred mark. All I need is 37.30. This week was awful.
i am working this weekend as my hubby traveled to the US for business and i thought i would make a kill....well, no. who said weekends are good???? grrrrrrrr
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