Starts at 1:03
Starts at 1:03
I really wish we could post more than 1 video in a post because having to post these videos individually is annoying af.
Last edited by Blovely; 01-30-2020 at 09:10 AM. Reason: corrections



Thank you I know exactly what you mean these people telling me "think positive" usually are friends of mine who don't know I do camming so they are not aware how bad my situation really is.
I'm currently in a abusive household and trying to escape. I have messaged welfare and am trying to find a flat on my own where I can hopefully continue webcamming until I find a better option.
One of the reasons why I'm depressed is because I'm being emotionally abused by my parents for years now. Its been so bad lately as I've been trying to escape this household but I have massive debts so I'm still kind of dependent from my parents sadly but I'm trying to change that ASAP. If I must I will go to a social worker but last time I went there and told them I do sexwork they completely panicked and tried to put me into a psych ward. They didn't believe me that webcamming paid my bills a bit and thought I was a sex trafficking victim which is NOT true. Sadly in my country they always treat sexworkers like that hence why we try to not seek help from social workers. People in my country are too uneducated about sex work and make us feel worse than we already feel.
Sorry it turned out into a rant but I have taken a 5 days break form camming where I have been constantly thinking about my future and I have barely been eating I feel so sick. I was also screamed at by my parents multiple times for trying to seek financial aid outside of my family. They constantly threaten me and say things like "we did everything for you" and "you are so ungrateful other people have no parents" (tbh I would better be off without parents at this point!! as harsh as it sounds) and also the most used threat of them "you would be nothing without us" NO I would be better off without you. That household is the reason why I started taking drugs in the first place. Its really hard I'm feeling myself falling appart daily seeing some 12-15 year old looking like camgirls literally banking the entire month of January on Chaturbate meanwhile I sit here I made 500-800$ the entire month its so tiring. Sometimes I just think I'm too ugly and fat for this job.





^^^ Yes in some parts of the world things are not that easy, camming is something that will pay better than any other job I could find here cause I am getting US dollars for it that has good value here while another job will get me money in my currency which is a lot less. As slow as it is with camming I can make a decent amount working few hrs a nite.
In my country things are a lot different and to build an online career at 45 yo is not easy considering I am not native in English and have no knowledge, is hard to learn new things when older.
ETA: @Bananabunny, makes me sad to read u doing drugs there cause u emotionally abused by ur parents, i wonder what they do to u exactly if u ok to share. As a mom myself i wish to know what not to do to emotionally abuse my son as he lives with me still, we been thru very difficult times and he was affected by me being sick but i never intended to harm him in any way and is heartbreaking to read ur parents abuse u tho doing drugs or drinking is never a good solution. Be well.
Last edited by KatM; 01-30-2020 at 05:52 AM.





I love Peter, he's one of my favs. PotatoJet is good too if you're into cameras. I appreciate how fast he talks. Get's right to the point.
When I started my yt it was all over the place..it still is. At first I was afraid that I was being too broad and that would confuse people. But it didn't. I love what he says about stretching your creative muscle in this video.





Today has been crickets!
![]()
idk what's up with everyone because other than a couple short calls with regulars, it has been dead af. I even had time to make a 15 minute custom, edit it, and send it to the buyer. think i'll go to bed, get on cam early, and gear up for a much better night.
Some times I am watching on my ipad his cabin building videos while on cam. It is so relaxing and I want to do that someday. MY family used to have a log cabin and we lost once a family member passed away, so that's my big dream lol
A log cabin, two big fluffly dogs(I love newfies and samoyeds), and lots of hot chocolate lol
- - - -
Decided to start doing morning shifts again so I can fix my sleep pattern and still slow.Another camsite has been better for me but I can't splitcam until my I finish building my new pc.(sorry I'm so vague, I just don't like the feeling of being watched by SM, gosh I am so paranoid some times)



2 Canadian golds for a hour online, sad sigh. I sat online earlier and no results at all.





Guess I wont waste electricity and turn the living room light on. They can still see me enough with the overcast daylight coming in. I'm trying to remain positive. The other day I had to take my rabbit to the vet to get neutered. I woke up at 6am and had to drive 45 mins away to drop him off at 7:30am. The sun wasnt out, the fog was thick. I even got stuck in an accident on the way due to how thick the fog was. Imagine doing that every morning?!?! Sigh. Was nice to be home to and be able to give him his pain meds today to. I just wish we all could get a little something on here everyday. I wish we could come on and say I got my bills paid and bought a pizza! We all just want to live comfortable and have a little extra for that pizza or to go out and buy that cup of coffee with a friend. Rich is nice but I know us ladies in this thread just want some peace in our lives and the comfort of simply having our basic bills paid.



Lmao I know the ones on in the afternoon are! I literally had a dude chilling in my room a few Months ago talking about he in prison, for what I don't remember... Using stolen CCs lol most he gave me was $15 tip between few weeks- a total of $15 within WEEKS, how generous of him. Like I wanted to give benefit of the doubt that he was playing & crossed fingers he'd be converted into a client but that was wishful thinking, he was nothing more than a negging ass scummy bum that ended up blocked LOL.

Girl, the man spending all his commissary on you, must be love, lol





There's a guy following me on Instagram. He's bought a few clips in the past so I don't really mind when he sends me YT videos of old Usher songs. It's weird but funny. Finally I decided to take a deeper look at his Insta page and I noticed in most of them he's posing next to a toilet! Like huh, who does that? A prisoner that's who.
According to one of his post he's been in there for 19 years!!! Homie has a phone with apps and access to money. I've gotten phonesex calls from prison before but this is my first one to order custom clips.
As for daytime customers being unemployed..some of them perhaps. But it can be 11am and 11pm at the same time.




Ugh I hate peepers. Finally had a private come in and I didnt force him in to exculsive cause he wasnt requesting anything but for me to enjoy myself. Two peepers stopped by but left before they got charged. I feel peepers should be charged from the second they step in to a private. Only the first one who took you gets the option to dash out on you and not be charged before the site starts charging but everyone else must pay up.





^^^ I know right?! Empty room or in and outs and when u finally get a show is like all peepers wake up and come in to spy! Hate that myself!



SM is super glitchy tonight which is making it slow. Grrr lol.




I gave up on SM last night due to that. The audio was the worst, it would take up to a minute for the audio to start when you entered a room. Guys wouldnt stick around waiting for your audio to work thats for sure. Bitrate was all over to and I would see girls pixel on and off who normally dont.





and this, class, is why i don't work on saturday's.
MY REACTION TO 99% OF FREE CHAT





Today is worse than yesterday , I haven't had one pvt in 2 hours now. and just a handful of tips




I gave up after 2 hours and zero made on SM, CMD and NF. Going to shower, have dinner and sign back in to Indy as well as back on to my PSO lines. Even the TTM chat line was dead. Not sure if I'll try SM again later or not. Depends how the evening with Indy goes.
Camming sucked. Yes, I have made my goal this month, but it sucked terriblky. It's been a freaking rollercoaster. 3 days in a row with $30- $60, then $600 day. Then again. Rinse and repeat. And that makes camming suck. Why it can't be fucking consistent?!?! It's irritating and mood swinging!!!





What really sucks I feel I worked really hard , they were all so chatty I never got to sign on to any indy sites today.. they all just wasted my time and I played the ban cop all day like I am running a deranged daycare of sorts. .I feel really exhausted I didn't get one good pvt in almost 4 hours.. and I got a 48 second pvt on SM and a few tips ..
Bookmarks